Chapter 9: The Distance Between You and Me
âYouâre telling me she memorized and wrote all this after just a few hours of learning to read and write?â
Charon, Madame Blansé, and the imperial official were gathered once again in the drawing room. This time, Elika was with them.
âIf thatâs true, she really is a genius…â
The official trailed off as he looked at Elika. She hid behind Jacqueline, as if scared of him.
âWeâll correct her behavior,â Charon said.
âShe lived alone with a violent father and never had the chance to learn right from wrong. But deep down, sheâs a gentle childâŠâ
At that point, Charon looked at his grandmother. Madame BlansĂ© had been silent with her eyes lowered, but sensing her grandsonâs feelings, she slowly raised her gaze.
âIf we teach her properly, sheâll grow up to be a good person.â
Even Charon didnât fully believe his own words, but he forced them outâfor his grandmotherâs sake. He nervously licked his dry lips, afraid she might see through him.
âIf Your Grace says so⊠But it wonât be easy. Her violent tendencies wonât disappear overnight. If something like today happens againâŠâ
âRegardless, the BlansĂ© family will raise her,â Madame BlansĂ© said, finally speaking.
âGive us three years. If she grows up safely during that time, weâll reevaluate her then.â
Charon looked a little surprised by her sudden proposal, but she silenced him with just a small wave of her hand.
âIâll inform His Majesty,â said the official.
But they all knewâCharon, Madame BlansĂ©, and even the official himselfâthat when someone as powerful as Madame BlansĂ© spoke, not even the Emperor could refuse her.
* * *
Three days later, a letter from the Imperial Palace arrived.
[The review for the girl âElikaâ under the âCarlyle Empireâs Talent Development Projectâ is postponed for three years.]
It was a clear sign that the imperial family was following Madame BlansĂ©âs wishes.
âIt means you have to become a good child within three years,â Jacqueline explained.
* * *
âAll done!â
Marie proudly lifted the wooden sculpture she had finished carving. It was a statue of the Flower Goddess, smiling with a large bouquet of freesia flowers in her arms.
âWow! Itâs so pretty! I think itâs even prettier than the first one!â Elika said.
âIt must look prettier because of the freesia. Thanks for drawing them for me.â
Elika had drawn the freesia for Marie using paper and pencil Jacqueline gave her. She had remembered every little detail of the flowers she had seen years ago.
âMarie, your carving is even prettier than the flowers I saw. Your mom will really love it!â
âActually, I was thinking of giving it to someone else.â
âTo who?â
* * *
âWhat face do you have, coming here?â
Belle, sitting on her bed with a bandage on her head, turned her face away sharply. Marie didnât care and simply held out the statue.
âI came to give you this.â
Belle glanced sideways, and when she saw the sculpture, her eyes widened.
âYou said you didnât mean to damage my statue, right? Iâm sorry for misunderstanding and getting angry. And Elika hit you because of me. So, please forgive her too.â
Belle looked surprised as she received the sculpture.
âWhy are you giving this to meâŠ?â
âItâs a get-well gift, of course.â
âMarie⊠you really are a fool.â
It wasnât anyoneâs fault that their friendship had drifted apart, but Belle felt like it was all hers. She had always been the âselfish one,â even cursed by her own mother. No matter how hard she tried, she was hated, while Marie was loved just as she was. She liked and hated Marie for thatâand that made her feel miserable.
âYou always make me feel so small.â
Belle quickly wiped her eyes and looked back at Marie.
âI canât accept this. How can I? I know how much your mom is waiting for your carving. And you donât need to say sorry. I was wrong too. You know Iâm a bad person.â
After a short silence, Marie replied.
âIâve never thought you were a bad person.â
Belleâs eyes widened as she looked at Marie. Then, she gave a small smile, as if saying, Of course, youâd say that.
Marie suddenly pulled Elikaâwho had been fidgeting beside herâclose.
âAnd Elika wants to apologize too. Right, Elika?â
âY-YeahâŠâ
Elika shyly opened her mouth.
âIâm sorry, Belle. I didnât know I shouldnât hit people. Iâm a fool and a bad girlâŠâ
âThatâs not the right thing to do.â
Those were the Dukeâs words. When he said that, it felt like something had hit her. She had been hit so many timesâshe knew how scary and painful it was. So why didnât she realize that hitting someone else was wrong?
Maybe because she never had the time or space to think.
But Elika only blamed herself for being âstupid.â
âDonât say that.â
Belle suddenly said in a firm voice. She didnât like hearing Elika call herself a bad girlâit felt like she was looking into a mirror.
âIf you came to apologize, youâre not a bad girl. And youâre not stupid either.â
Elikaâs face lit up like sunshine, and she hugged Belle tightly.
âThank you, thank you, Belle!â
Belle blushed and said, âHey, let go,â but to Elika, it sounded like sweet music.
Now she had two friends.
It was another happy day.
* * *
âI made two friends. Iâm the happiest person in the world. Itâs all thanks to the Duke. I really like him.â
Charon sighed and set down the paper.
âLike me, huh.â
He didnât understand the strange feeling in his chest.
He was the one who told her to write down what she learned and how she felt each day. Heâd made it clear no one else should correct her, just so he could see her progress.
Every night at 9 PM, when the other maids went to sleep, Elika spent two hours learning with Jacqueline. After that, she would go to Charonâs study with her notes, and they would study together.
It was their private study time.
âIs he sighing because there are too many mistakes?â
Elika nervously fidgeted as she looked at the Dukeâs expression. She sat in the middle of the study and unknowingly began shaking her leg.
âDonât shake your leg.â
Charon said in a calm, flat voiceânot angry or scolding, just a quiet command. It carried a quiet authority, just like his grandmother. Elika immediately stopped.
âKeep your hands still too. You donât need to be nervous around me. Iâm your sponsor and your guardian.â
He said that to help her feel safe, but he had no idea how deeply those words touched her.
âGuardianâŠâ
Elika placed her hands neatly on her knees and nodded.
âIâm not so nervous anymore.â
ââŠCome here.â
Elika got up and ran over to his side.
âI meant come to the desk⊠not this close.â
She stood right next to him, blinking up at him. It was too close for comfort, but he didnât push her away.
âLook. You should write this like this.â
He corrected her writing with a pen. Elika leaned in to see better, and ended up practically in his arms.
âToo closeâŠâ
He could even smell her hair. Feeling flustered, he scooted his chair away a little.
âThis part should use âìâ instead of âìââŠâ
He could only see the side of her face, but he could tellâher eyes were shining brighter than the lantern.
ââŠAnd this is how you spell âìąìì (I like you).ââ
Suddenly, Elika turned her head quickly, and their faces came very close.
Charon instinctively leaned back, barely avoiding contact. Was she doing it on purpose? Should he scold her for not keeping distance?
Then she said, âDuke, I like you.â
ââŠWhat?â
âWhy do we write it as âìąììâ even though we say âìĄ°ììâ?â
She repeated the word softly to herself.
âOh⊠she was just sounding it out.â
He felt silly for being flustered.
ââŠSpelling is like a promise.â
He continued casually.
âThere used to be a reason, but now itâs just a rule we follow.â
âShould we always keep promises?â
âYes. Thatâs why we shouldnât make them lightly.â
âIs your promise to sponsor me also a âpromiseâ?â
ââŠYes.â
âThen⊠that means you wonât abandon me, right?â
Her face was so bright that he gently pushed her forehead with his finger.
âDonât come too close.â
She quickly stepped back.
âThe right distance between you and me⊠is about this much.â
For her, it was three small steps. For him, maybe two big ones.
ââŠOkay, Duke. Iâll be careful.â
Elika smiled brightly. Charon turned his head, pretending to look away.
Why did she always come so close? She just wanted loveâsomething she never had. But Charon, who had always been loved, didnât understand that simple truth. He only knew that she made him feel off-balanceâand that scared him.
His eyes wandered to her paper on the desk.
âIâm the happiest person in the world.â
He didnât know what he felt when reading that. Pity? Sympathy? Guilt? Or maybe even disgust?
He didnât know.
But he hated the confusion.
ââŠYou can go.â
He handed her the paper without looking at her and made his voice colder on purpose.