~Chapter 113~
The Only One
âYes. It’s me who can make it happen.â
Nora replied, raising her chin confidently.
âEleanor doesnât know, does she? She doesnât know what you want, or what you’re thinking. But I do. I can read your mind, sir.â
âReally? Iâd like to hear what you think I want and what Iâm thinking.â
âShould I really say it out loud? Who knows, someone might be listening.â
If Eleanor hears it, things would get complicated. She added in a soft voice.
Ernst looked coldly down at Noraâs smiling face. His sharp gaze seemed to search for her true intentions as he scanned her small face.
In front of that gaze, Nora stood confidently. She knew exactly what he wanted. She had spent so much time observing him in the past that it was obvious to her.
But even though she knew, she couldnât understand why he still liked Eleanor.
âWhy her and not me?â
Nora couldnât comprehend it. What was so special about that dull and boring girl, Eleanor? Why had he stuck by her side all this time?
Eleanorâs father, brother, and fiancĂŠ had all chosen Nora. So why had Ernst not chosen her?
Clenching her fist, Nora flashed a sly smile at Ernst.
âThink carefully, sir. Honestly, you want it too. Until now, the difference in our status kept us apart, but now thatâs no longer a problem. If you want, you can have what youâve always wanted. That girl could be yours.â
ââŚ.â
âIt wouldnât be bad for Eleanor either. Rather than becoming some dukeâs mistress, sheâd be much happier at your side, living with the man who loves her. Donât you think?â
She whispered temptations into his ear, just like when she had tried to seduce Arlo.
She could see the slight wavering in his green eyes, and she murmured to herself, ‘You’re a man too, you’ll eventually fall for my words.’
Looking him straight in the eyes, she was confident that men always gave her the answer she wanted.
But this time, Ernst said something different from what she had expected.
âYouâre mistaken.â
As always, Ernst was the one person who made a different choice from everyone else.
âIâve never wished for Eleanor to stay by my side, managing my household or anything like that. What I truly want is not for her to become my lover.â
âThatâs a lie. You looked at her with those eyes, and now you say you donât like her? Do you think Iâll fall for that lie?â
Nora clenched her fists tightly, her anger rising. She was furious that he was rejecting her offer and pretending to lie about it. But what frustrated her more was hearing him say he didnât want Eleanor. That was the part that made her heart beat faster.
âWhether you believe me or not doesnât matter. What Iâve said is clear.â
Ernst added firmly.
âYou canât give me what I truly want. What I want, more than anything, is Eleanorâs happiness.â
Ha. Nora let out a bitter laugh. His response was exactly what she expected from a knightâso typical, so nauseating. The fact that he still referred to Eleanor as “Eleanor” even now made her want to scream in disgust.
âAre you kidding me? After seeing that girl flirting with other men, you say that? I know what your face looked like every time Arlo came to see her. You looked like you wanted to kill him. You were so jealous you couldnât stand it!â
âYes. I did feel that way. Whatâs the problem with that?â
âWhat?â
âI did feel like killing him, and yes, I was jealous. If Eleanor meets another man and falls in love with him, Iâll suffer again. But the thought of her being unhappy is what truly pains me. If sheâs unhappy by my side, Iâd rather die than see her like that. Thatâs how much I love her.â
The word love stabbed into Noraâs heart like a jagged knife. The mix of shame and anger made her shiver with disgust.
âIâve decided that no matter what happens, Iâll protect her. Itâs not because sheâs real or fake, itâs because sheâs the person I want to protect. Thatâs a value that canât be bought with money or power. Youâll probably never understand that.â
ââŚGet out.â
Nora glared at him fiercely, her lips trembling. With her last ounce of strength, she shouted.
âLeave! Now!â
Ernst, who had wanted to leave immediately, froze when he heard her words. He stood still, staring at her silently. Then, he began to slowly examine her from head to toe, noticing the redness on her bruised knees from her fall.
ââŚOnce, I pitied you.â
Noraâs eyes widened.
âActually, I pitied you a lot. Even before you claimed to be the real one, and even after.â
ââŚWhat?â
âIn the past, I felt sorry for you because of your misplaced desires. You tortured yourself, unable to accept pure kindness and always comparing yourself to others, hiding behind a false face.â
Noraâs face turned bright red in an instant. Her lips, stained with blood, trembled as her heart began to race.
Meanwhile, Ernst continued speaking, with a completely indifferent expression.
âAfter everything happened, I saw you decide to chase after your desires, trapped in lies for the rest of your life. That life you chose is pitiful.â
Nora lost her balance for a moment, stumbling.
She felt more miserable than she ever had before. It was worse than when she was rolling around in bed with a nameless man, or when she thought of herself as nothing more than a breeding mare. Right now, hearing the man she had loved for so long call her life pitiful was the most painful thing she had ever heard.
âBut now, I feel no pity for you.â
Ernst gently held Noraâs shoulder to steady her, looking down at her as their eyes met.
The whisper that followed felt like a warning, a low murmur in her ear.
âSo be careful, Nora. From now on, I wonât hesitate to strike.â
It was a warning, not to Nora of Astria, but to Eleanorâs maid, Nora.
Letting go of her shoulder, Ernst turned and walked away, passing her without a word.
Ha, haâŚ
Nora stared at his retreating figure, feeling a strange emptiness well up inside her. Her eyes burned as if tears were about to fall, but she didnât cry. She just smiled bitterly as she watched him walk away.
I was pitiful. My life, drunk on desires, was pitifulâŚ
How foolish it all sounded.
But thatâs why I liked you.
With Ernst, Nora thought she could give up her greed. She could stop comparing herself to others and live happily by his side. Because to her, he was the only one.
Not arrogant, not selfish, not violent. He treated her like a human being, beyond rank and gender.
But he was someone she could never have.
So, in the end, Nora chose to give up on love instead of greed. It was the easier and more comfortable path.
Nora slowly turned her head and looked out the window at the hallway. The morning sun had risen, and its light was spilling through the window, brightly illuminating her.
She stared at the sunlight for a moment, lost in thought, before finally turning around and walking back to her room.
A new man would be coming tonight. It was the most likely day for pregnancy, and she had to endure this beastly mating. She needed to try to conceive.
All I need is a baby.
Once she had a baby, all this misery and emptiness would be over. The pain she was going through now would just be a temporary hardship for a much greater happiness in the future.
She muttered this over and over, walking back to her room.
The room that had once belonged to the Astria Princess.
so she looked at her situation previously and thought it is easier to usurp the position of daughter of duke instead of courting a knight? i don’t understand