Chapter 45: The Secret Game (14)
âYustar-nim, what is that…?â
Robskerâs eyes wavered. Yustar tightened his grip on the sword and spoke.
âDonât listen to a word it says.â
With a thunderous boom, the ground around Yustar and the unit caved in. A cloud of dust rose, blurring their vision.
Yustar felt something cold and sharp graze his cheek. A thin line of blood trickled down as if cut by the tip of a needle. Every nerve in his body was on edge, as if something might burst from the back of his neck.
âAre you going to just stand there and watch me until that little witch draws her last breath?â
The creature, Smulkin, still in the form of a child, giggled and flipped midair. Yustar glanced in the direction of the sinkhole.
He saw a faint shimmer of darkness pooled deep in the bottomless pit, and momentarily forgot the tense standoff, smiling faintly.
âRobsker.â
âYes, Yustar-nim.â
âPrepare the ‘rat trap.’ Weâre going to capture it.â
âNot kill it?â
âIf we act rashly and something happens to the sink before Miss Krislad escapes, weâll be in trouble. We capture it first, secure her safety, then deal with the rest.â
Robsker stared at him for a moment, then straightened his sword and fixed his gaze on the tiny demon hovering in the air.
âUnderstood, Yustar-nim. Iâll prepare it.â
Layla stared blankly at Lilin, her eyes filled with confusion. Was it just her imagination? At first, he had seemed like mistâready to vanish at any momentâbut now, his form was growing more distinct.
It was as if he were becoming denser⌠Just a little more and he would no longer appear ghostlike, but like a real person. Or maybe a statue made to resemble one.
âSo for you to understand that, you must first understand me.â
Lilin spoke. Layla understood what he was trying to say. But she couldnât grasp why she needed to understand that little demon in the first place.
No, could such a thing even be understood? Witches of the Dark Ages were once accused of summoning demons and celebrating amidst plagues, wars, and nightmares, but that was all a misconception.
Only fools believed demons could be summoned with clumsy human incantations.
Layla shook her head. She didnât want to understand it. But Lilin was adamant.
âIf you donât, youâll die here. You must see my âcoreâ to figure out how to get rid of it.â
âYou could just tell me, couldnât you? Itâs your memory!â
âYou call yourself a witch, but you really know nothing.â
Lilin wore an expression only a hundred-year-old man could pull off. Layla felt a sudden and inexplicable sense of shame…
Then came anger. And petty resentment. She was surprised at herself. Wasn’t she the one acting like a child now?
Lilin continued.
âThis sink belongs to me. I died when I was ten. The longer you stay here, the more itâll affect you. Your body will rot, and your mind⌠your spirit…â
âWill grow younger.â
âExactly,â Lilin agreed. âThatâs why you have to see my core before itâs too late. As long as Iâm here, this space wonât disappear. Same goes for Smulkin. That demon needs me. Thatâs why it trapped both of us hereâto keep us from escaping.â
A painful sigh escaped Laylaâs lips.
âFine,â she said. She watched as Lilinâs pale, round face slowly drew closer to hers.
There wasnât even space to moveâhow could he get closer? Then she realized. Lilin wasnât approaching from the outside.
He was entering her. Slowly, seeping into her mind.
âIâm glad.
His final, incomprehensible words echoed in her head. Then her vision wavered, as if underwater. The darkness tore apart, revealing a new space.
She saw Lilinâs memory.
âLilin!
Momâs in a bad mood today, thought six-year-old Lilin.
Well, his mother was always like that. Either in a bad mood⌠or in a very bad mood. Nothing in between.
If she was just angry, yelling and scowling, Lilin was actually relieved. If she was smiling, it usually meant a storm was coming.
âLilin!
The moment her voice boomed overhead, Lilinâs small body slammed onto the wooden floor. The unpolished boards scraped his soft cheek, leaving a cut.
âYou useless little brat! I told you to drink the milk! What, are you going to let it turn into a chunk of rotting cheese?!
âIt was already spoiled, Mom. I couldnât drink it.
ââAlready spoiled, Momâ? Oh, excuse me! Princess canât drink spoiled food now? You worthless thing who doesnât earn a penny! Get up, you wretch!
Lilin tried to resist, but his motherâs strength overwhelmed him.
His heel scraped on the stairs. His malnourished calves banged against the steps. Probably bruised. Lilin scratched at her arm and slapped at her hand, but it was pointless.
Say youâre sorry! Beg! A voice inside him screamed. But Lilin didnât.
He was a child who never apologized for things that werenât his fault.
âMom! No! Donât!
When the closet door opened, Lilinâs eyes widened in fear. He hated dark places.
Even at night, if moonlight didnât spill through the window, he couldnât fall asleep. He always feared something would leap out of the darkness and devour him.
But his mother didnât care. As Lilin tried to escape like a cat, she shoved him back in.
âTry starving in there. Maybe youâll be grateful to lick moldy cheese instead of wasting milk next time. Iâll beat some manners into you.
Darkness swallowed his vision. No matter how he pushed, the door wouldnât budge. He heard the bolt click into place between the handles and her heavy footsteps receding.
âNo! Open it! Iâm scared! Mom!
He screamed until his throat went raw. But she never came back. Curled up among the familiar smell of dust, Lilin squeezed his eyes shut.
I wonât cry, he thought. I wonât beg. Iâm not a coward.
But adults like it when kids are cowards.
That way they listen better.
Not me though. Lilinâs lips tightened.
Iâm not a coward. Iâm going to get out of here. Iâm not going to die here. Iâm not drinking spoiled milk. Iâll escape from Mom.
Every time his motherâs shrill laughter echoed from the hallway, Lilin curled up under the blanket.
After remarrying, his mother no longer forced him to drink spoiled milk.
She stopped tossing him moldy bread and disappearing for days, then looking disappointed when he answered the door.
But that didnât mean she was kind now.
I hate that man.
Lilin shuddered whenever he heard Mansonâs voice vibrating through the walls.
His mother went to work every day, but Manson didnât. Sometimes he disappeared for a month and came back with a pouch of coins, but that only happened two or three times a year. The rest of the time, he lazed around the house.
His mother now had to feed herself, her daughter, and Manson, but she didnât seem to realize her situation.
She accepted his rare coin pouches like they were chariots full of gold. And for the rest of the months, even when he consumed all the food and money doing nothing, she never complained.
Unlike how she treated Lilin, she didnât serve him spoiled food. Even when she came home exhausted, she made hot soup for him.
She wasnât always like this. Lilin murmured to himself, fingers fiddling under the blanket.
When his mother first started living with Manson, in less than six months, Lilin had feared she might die.
She was strong and bigâstrong enough to throw him into a closetâbut Manson had shoulders twice her size.
His hands were thick like loaves of bread, but not soft. No warmth in them.
Whenever his mother âchantedâ that he should go earn money, thatâs when Mansonâs magic began.
Lilin always thought there was a monster hiding under Mansonâs massive body, and when his mother cast those spells, he realized he was right.
The monster under Mansonâs skin broke out and destroyed everything in reach.
What the monster most wanted to destroy was Lilinâs mother. When Manson grabbed her by the collar, Lilin would dash to his room and hide under the bed.
Only when the monster left to find a new victim did he creep downstairs.
If his mother was unconscious, he wiped the blood from her nose and laid a wet cloth on her forehead. If she was still awake, heâd quietly return to his room and not move again until morning.
After this happened a few times, she stopped chanting spells to awaken the monster.
Instead, she seemed to decide it was better to worship it.
Living with a monster that could appear at any time, and a mad woman who served it with hot soup and alcohol, Lilin learned to hide anywhere to survive. Anywhereâexcept the closet.
âLilin.
When his mother wasnât home, Manson would sink into the tattered sofa and drink.
In her absence, Lilin had to serve the monster in her place. He hated when Manson stared at him. And on days like today, when he called his nameâit was the worst.
âLilin!
Manson shouted. Lilin knew he couldnât pretend not to hear him over the sound of dishwashing anymore. He turned his head.
âYes⌠Dad.
âCome here.