Chapter : 06
Jacqueline turned to Benjamin with an expression brimming with pride.
The boyâs face gradually took on a look of bewilderment. After thinking hard, Benjamin finally spoke in an uncertain voice.
âIs it a snowman? Hmm⌠I also think it might be a sunflower endowed with humanity. After all, Fauvist painters sometimes grant personality to objects.â
Jacqueline turned her head once more to look at the picture she had drawn. She replied with a shamelessly cheerful expression.
âActually, this is Colin, my most treasured teddy bear. Father gave him to me as a gift for my fifteenth birthday. No, Benjamin, you didnât mishearâit really was fifteen, not five. That was the year I entered boarding school. Ever since then, Colin has been my closest friend and family. Iâd love a chance to introduce him to you someday.â
ââŚYes.â
âGood. Then why donât you draw a picture too?â
Benjamin stood rooted to the spot, motionless. The child looked as flustered as someone about to commit their first act of rebellion.
Jacqueline understood that feeling wellâsheâd felt exactly the same before sheâd climbed over the boarding schoolâs wall.
But she also remembered the exhilarating sense of freedom and thrill sheâd felt afterward.
It was as if sheâd taken her first step into a whole new world, or as if sheâd cast off the heavy armor that had been suffocating her.
Of course, the world didnât change overnight. By sunset, sheâd had to return to school and endure a stern scolding from her housemistress.
The headmaster had even sent a letter to her home. And soon enough, her ordinary routine resumed as usual.
Yet that one experience became a great comfort and source of strength for Jacquelineâa comfort that helped her endure dull days, and the strength to stand against rigid rules.
If she truly wanted to, she could always climb over the wall again. It just wouldnât be today. Choosing not to do something was entirely different from being unable to do it.
If Lord Preston had corresponded with Headmaster Vincent, he wouldnât have hired me.
Jacqueline smirked faintly at the mischievous thought. Though generally obedient and exemplary, she occasionally stirred up unexpected trouble.
Still, everyone liked herâher friends and her teachers alike.
At sixteen, Jacqueline finally gained a piercing realization: rules and discipline must be observed, but one need not be shackled by them.
Sometimes, it was perfectly fine to break free. The sky wouldnât fall because of it. In fact, another world awaited herâone far broader and deeper than the one sheâd known before.
âItâs all right, Benjamin. Weâre just discussing the gentlemen of art sweeping across the kingdom. In other words, this is still part of our lesson. Whatâs your favorite color?â
ââŚâ
Once again, Benjamin offered no reply. The boy still hesitated before the strict rules that bound him.
Jacqueline lightly raised an eyebrow and began painting with yellow this time, acting casually so her suggestion wouldnât feel like pressure.
Perhaps it was a bit too early for Benjamin.
The life truth Jacqueline had only grasped at sixteen might be too heavy for a six-year-old. Yet she hoped the child would realize that rules werenât the entirety of the world.
Just then, Benjamin quietly approached her side. After several moments of hesitation, he finally picked up a paintbrush.
With great care, Benjamin meticulously dipped the brush into black paint. Jacqueline kept her eyes on her own artwork, offering no glance toward the boyâonly the faintest upturn of her lips betrayed her awareness.
Sometimes, indifference was necessaryâjust as Windsor had shown no interest in the âimpoverished young lady.â
Hesitation.
The squirrel-hair brush hovered over the ivory-colored wallpaper for a long moment. Benjamin was fighting his final internal battle against his own constraints.
It must have been as difficult as a chick struggling to break free from its eggshell.
Drip.
A drop of black paint fell from the tip of the brush to the floor. Jacqueline didnât urge him; she simply waited quietly in place.
Breaking out of the shell was entirely the childâs own task.
ââŚâ
At last, firmness filled the boyâs brushstroke. A single black dot appeared on the wallpaper.
The timid brush grew steadily bolder, and before long, it successfully formed a distinct shape.
âWow!â
Only then did Jacquelineâs eyes widen in astonishment as she looked at the drawing. She spoke in a voice full of admiration.
âItâs a ship!â
ââŚYes.â
At the boyâs reply, Jacquelineâs eyes grew even wider. She burst into a bright, delighted laugh as if sheâd received an unexpected gift.
Benjamin shyly lowered his head, while Jacqueline rested her chin on one hand like a judge evaluating an artwork, studying the drawing intently.
âWhere is this ship headed?â
ââŚâ
âHmm, judging by its shape, itâs not a merchant vesselâitâs a warship, isnât it?â
â!â
At those words, Benjaminâs eyes widened in surprise. For the first time, genuine warmth flickered in his gaze as he looked back at Jacqueline.
Jacqueline picked up a light-green brush and returned her focus to her own pieceâa simple depiction of her humble wish:
a small house standing in an open field.
After a long pause, Benjamin quietly added in a small voice,
âItâs the largest warship of the Black Fleet that protects the kingdomâs seas. It guards merchant ships and exterminates pirates. Ahâthe âBlack Fleetâ is the nickname for the kingdomâs navy.â
A faint but proud emotion shimmered within him.
When had it been? She recalled reading a news article about how Windsorâs flagship dramatically rescued a merchant vessel captured by pirates.
Thanks to interviews with the returning sailors, his name had circulated like a heroâs legend for a whileâalongside reports labeling him the Marquess of Prestonâs illegitimate son.
Ever since then, pirates had started calling Windsor âthe Demon of the Black Fleetââfor the demon showed no mercy, never granting clemency.
Did Benjamin admire his uncle?
Lost in thought, Jacqueline looked at the boy and added casually,
âWhat a magnificent warship. If only this ship had been dispatched when my fatherâs merchant vessel ran agroundâperhaps everyone could have returned alive.â
â!â
For an instant, Benjaminâs eyes flew wide open. His light-brown irises trembled faintly. Only then did Jacqueline realize her words had triggered this reaction.
âItâs all right. Thatâs all in the past now.â
Itâs fine.
Those words were both kindness for the other person and a mantra for herself.
Jacqueline always had to be âfineââeven when sheâd heard the news of her fatherâs ship sinking, even when debt collectors stormed their home.
She had a mother weakened by neurosis and reporters watching her every move.
Thatâs why she had to be fine. After all, this was high societyâa place where someoneâs misfortune quickly became entertaining gossip.
She could never afford to break down. She had to remain composed, pretend everything was normalâand she believed sheâd done it rather well.
Yet right now, in this moment, the small child before her seemed so similar to herself. Perhaps Benjamin, too, kept going by repeating âIâm fineââfor the grief of losing both parents was neither light nor fleeting.
âMy dream is to have a little house bearing my own nameâa house where my mother and I can live together. Doesnât that sound wonderful?â
She painted a few blue flowers in the yard in front of the little house and finally set her brush aside. Her confident eyes turned toward the boy.
As Benjamin listened to her words, his eyes slowly filled with bewilderment again. His gaze, darting quickly left and right, quietly drifted down to the floor.
After a hesitant pause, Benjamin slowly nodded.
ââŚYes.â
Though clearly not the boyâs first lie in life, it slipped out without stirring any guilt.
Because Jacqueline smiled brightly and drew clouds above the roof. Seeing the fluffy purple clouds, Benjamin gathered his courage.
âThe clouds look majestic.â
âClouds? Ah, these? These are apple trees. Itâs spring, so there are no apples yetâbut doesnât it clearly look like an apple tree?â
ââŚâ
Benjamin turned his head slightly, dipped a fresh brush into green paint, and immersed himself fully in his own creation.
With every movement of his fingertips, trains appeared, and carriages paraded through streets. To any observer, his skill would have seemed far superior to Jacquelineâs.
Just then, Jacquelineâs gentle voice continued,
âIn Fauvism, the most important thing is to reveal the artistâs individuality. Itâs essential to move beyond the realistic forms of trains or carriages and infuse them with your own imaginationâlike a train with wings or a carriage pulled by a dragon.â
ââŚâ
âBenjamin, if you try just a little harder, youâll be able to draw wonderful pictures like mine. Ahâbut even compared to other children your age, youâre already quite good. So thereâs absolutely no reason to feel discouraged. Itâs simply that Iâm exceptionally talented. Truthfully, Iâve always had a vivid imagination since I was little.â
Benjamin had many things he wanted to say, but he pressed his lips tightly together, recalling the Preston family motto: âSilence is golden.â
Instead, his brush spoke volubly in his stead.
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The Preston family carriage stood imposingly in the middle of the grand avenue.
Roman Miller, Windsorâs aide-de-camp, gripped the carriage door with one hand while keeping the other behind his back, his spine perfectly straight. His posture resembled that of a soldier more than an aide.
That wasnât entirely inaccurateâhe had been in the navy before becoming Windsorâs aide.
At that moment, Windsor emerged from the building and boarded the carriage. Roman sat across from him and shut the door. The stationary carriage began to move.
The rigid posture Roman had maintained just moments earlier melted away as he let out a light whistle. âPhew.â
His stern expression softened instantly.
âIsnât that automobile trailing behind us from the Greenwood household? What business could Lord Walter Greenwood possibly have with His Lordship? They never interact, do they?â
His questions came rapid-fire with open curiosity, but Windsor remained silent. Roman frowned as he watched the automobile speeding ahead of their carriage.
âThese days, anyone with a bit of money rides in automobilesâso why does Your Lordship still stubbornly stick to this old-fashioned carriage? Youâre certainly wealthy enough.â
âAutomobiles are still an imperfect mode of transport. Didnât you read the news a few days ago about a car that suddenly stalled on the railroad tracks while crossing them, causing a collision with a train?â
âBut wasnât that accident caused by a drunk driver who forced his way across the tracks? Besides, if weâre talking accidents, carriage accidents are just as common as automobile ones.â
âBut carriage accidents are predictable. I have no intention of entrusting my safety to unreliable machinery.â
At that, Roman clasped his hands behind his head and sank deeper into the seat.
âI had no idea Your Lordship valued safety so highly. Yet when battles broke out, didnât you always stand at the vanguardâleaving your subordinates behind you?â
âCircumstances were different then.â
âHow so?â






