09 â Interrogation
âDo you have a curfew at home?â
âAh, yeah. As long as Iâm back by seven for dinner, itâs fine. Thatâs my curfew.â
âI see. Then donât eat too much, okay?â
âI know, I know. Iâll just get some fries.â
âHm. I might go for a Big Wac then.â
âW-what? Thatâs way too much!â
We kept talking like that, and in the end, I ended up being treated to fries by Orikawa-san.
On the way to the fast-food place, I had apparently been too quietâso quiet that she actually got mad at me. âThatâs just awkward beyond saving,â sheâd said.
It really was.
It was evening, so the rush had eased a little, but the place was still nearly full.
There were students in uniforms who probably came straight from school, others already changed into casual clothes, college students studying, even adults dropping by after work.
I couldnât help thinking how anyone could concentrate in a place like this⌠but maybe some people actually found noise comforting.
We struggled to find seats, but an elderly woman with her grandchild told us they were leaving and offered theirs to us.
We thanked her and sat downâand the moment she did, Orikawa-san, clearly hungry, reached over and popped one of my fries into her mouth.
âHey, whereâre you going to college again?â
She asked it while chewing. Honestly, I wished sheâd swallow before talking.
âSeiga University. Itâs up in the mountains, so commutingâs gonna be a painâŚâ
âRight, that oneâs far. But isnât it pretty big?â
âYeah. I went to the open campusâit was huge.â
âYouâll probably get lost, Kashiwara.â
âYeah⌠I totally did get lost⌠Wait, arenât you supposed to call me Aika?â
âOh, right. Youâre used to it, so it slipped.â
âI guessâŚâ
I took a sip of juice while she bit into her hamburger with exaggerated force. Seriously⌠she eats like that every time.
Thenâ
âHey, Kashiwara.â
âWhat is it?â
ââŚI donât like what happened earlier.â
Her tone dropped.
âI said those things today because⌠after you were gone, I didnât want to regret not saying them while I still could. But now it just feels like I will regret it anyway. Sorry for dragging you into my selfishness, but⌠can you just act normal with me? Like always. We can just pretend that never happened, okay?â
âButââ
âNo âbutâ!â she cut in quickly. âItâs kind of lonely, isnât it? Thinking youâre only sticking around out of pity⌠that kind of stuff just makes it worse, right?â
ââŚOkay. If you call me Aika properly, Iâll agree.â
ââŚYeah, yeah. Got it. Then⌠take care of me, Aika.â
She crumpled the hamburger wrapper and tossed it onto the tray.
I smiled and folded up my empty fries box.
âUnderstood, Emi-chan.â
âW-why are you the only one with a â-chanâ?!â
âHehe.â
We laughed together.
Orikawa-sanâs voice was loud enough that it stood out even in the noisy shop. She laughed again, and I lowered my head a little, still smiling.
I could never forget what Emi-chan told me in that moment.
And I didnât want to.
But if being friends like thisâjust staying beside each otherâwas what was best, then maybe that was enough.
After all, Iâd never had a friend I could laugh with like this before.
Not since Manami.
When I unlocked the front door, my mother greeted me with a smile.
âComing home without Aika-chan is rare,â she teased, before disappearing into the kitchen.
Aika-chanâs shoes were already lined up at the entrance.
So she came home first.
âIâm home, Aika-chan.â
I gently opened my room door.
The lights were off. The room was quiet.
On the bed, I found Aika-chan lying there, unmoving.
Was she asleep?
If so, I should let her rest until dinner.
Trying not to make a sound, I slipped inside.
I set down my bag, changed out of my uniform into loungewear.
And thenâ
I felt a gaze from behind.
I turned.
Aika-chan was awake.
Staring right at me.
The moment I realized it, my face went hot.
âAhâAika-chan, good morningâŚâ
âWelcome back.â
âY-yeah⌠Iâm home. Um⌠sorry, itâs embarrassing if you stare like thatâŚâ
âRight. Sorry.â
She turned over without much care.
âŚThatâs strange.
I changed my clothes in the dim room, careful not to make noise. Somehow, it didnât feel like my room anymore.
Even the frog plush and rabbit plush on the deskânormally cuteâlooked oddly unsettling.
âAika?â
âEek!?â
Her voice suddenly whispered right next to my ear.
My heart nearly jumped out of my chest.
âA-Aika-chan! Donât scare me like that!â
âWhat did you do after school?â
âHuh?â
âYou said you had something to do, so you couldnât come home with me.â
âOh⌠y-yeah, rightâŚâ
âSo what was it?â
âU-um⌠wellâŚâ
I hesitated.
I couldnât tell her about Orikawa-san.
This was something I should keep to myself.
But I also couldnât lie well. Aika-chan always saw through me too easily.
So I chose my words carefully.
âO-Orikawa-san asked me to go shopping with her.â
âHmm? Thatâs all? Where did you go?â
âJ-just⌠around different places. A-actually, Aika-chan, what about you? You almost never have after-school plans, right?!â
I tried to shift the topic quickly.
It felt⌠wrong.
I had been out before without herâof course I hadâbut this time felt different.
Before, I would simply say I went out with Manami. I never gave details.
So why was she asking now?
âMy plans?â
Aika-chan smiled faintly.
âI got confessed to. A junior confessed to me.â
ââŚHuh?â
I held my breath.
She looked at me and chuckled.
My heart started pounding so loudly I thought she might hear it.
âR-reallyâŚ?â
My voice came out weak.
Why am I so scared?
Itâs just that she got confessed to.
Was I afraid sheâd accept and leave me?
No⌠that wasnât it.
Something else⌠something deeperâŚ
âIt was like something out of a manga. From someone at school. She said sheâll be going to a different university after graduation, so she wanted to tell me before then. She was very straightforward. It⌠made me kind of happy.â
âI⌠I seeâŚâ
She leaned closer.
Her lips brushed near my ear.
A shiver ran through my whole body.
No⌠I donât like this.
Letâs change the topic.
Dinner. Anything.
âOh⌠dinner tonight is hayashi rice, I thinkâŚâ
âIs that so? Iâm looking forward to it.â
ââŚSo what about your plans, Mana? It really was just shopping?â
âEh⌠ahâŚâ
I couldnât breathe properly.
Why was she asking this?
She had never questioned me like this before.
Even now, it shouldâve been normalâbut her presence felt⌠suffocating.
I couldnât form words.
And she just laughed softly at my silence.
Thenâ
Maybe⌠she knows?
About Orikawa-san confessing to me?
If so, is this why sheâs asking?
But I canât say it.
I canât tell her that kind of thing.
That would mean exposing her secret tooâŚ
âM-Mana?â
But if I keep hiding it⌠why do I feel like this?
And Aika-chan⌠she wouldnât go around telling things like that for fun.
Then maybeâŚ
Itâs okay to say it?
ââŚI⌠I was actually confessed to too⌠near graduationâŚâ
âBy who? That girl?â
âO-Orikawa-san⌠but! But she said she wants things to stay the same between us! She said sheâd regret it if she didnât tell me today, so she just said it! So⌠weâre still just friends⌠and IâAika-chan isâ!!!â
I stopped myself.
I couldnât continue.
Even if I wanted to, the words wouldnât come out.
And thenâ
She whispered.
Softly.
Right into my ear.
Warm breath brushing my skin.
âSo⌠were her lips soft?â
âŚshe said.