Chapter 78
Eileen was anxious.
âPlease pity Zeon.â
She had promised the Marchioness she would.
But she wasnât confident about dragging the huge problem called âRibbonsherâ into the Lowell household.
It might sound selfish, butâŚ
The truth was simple: Eileen felt closer to Cedric and the Lowell family than to Zeon or Ribbonsher. Because of everything they had gone through together.
If she could protect only one side, she would always choose Lowell.
âLowell is better for him than the capital anyway.â
Eileen looked into Cedricâs blue eyes that refused to leave her face.
He had such firm confidence where she had none.
âYou donât even know Zeon.â
âI can tell just by looking. He wouldnât survive in the palace. Kids like him canât.â
ââŚThatâs true.â
She exhaled slowly, reluctantly agreeing.
Cedric had never wanted so badly to know what she was thinking. He had even considered telling the Ribbonsher messenger right away that Lowell would take Zeonâbefore asking Eileen.
He imagined explaining afterward that there was âno other option.â
He had thought about it many times. But in the end, he couldnât do it becauseâŚ
âI know Iâm not fully trustworthy.â
He took a step closer, speaking carefullyâbecause his words had a purpose.
He wanted her to say, No, thatâs not true. I trust you.
He wanted to hear it from her own mouth.
Yet inside, a small fear lingeredâmaybe he really wasnât enough for her.
âI told you. Thatâs not the problem.â
Cedric automatically checked her expression.
Her calm green eyes were fully focused on him.
âItâs not that I donât trust you.â
âThen what is it?â
âIâm justâŚâ
Eileen looked out at the snowy landscape. Since they had walked to a quiet part of the grounds, tombstones could be seen in the distanceâthe resting place of Lowellâs direct ancestors.
The previous Duke and Duchess must be buried there too.
Cedric was their only child, the one meant to lead Lowell into the future. If he fell, the house would crumble or lose its long peace.
âIâm scared, Cedric.â
Her voice was so soft it almost disappeared into the falling snow.
âIâm scared this might not be the right choice for you or for the Lowell family.â
ââŚFor me?â
âYes. You, Diana⌠Bringing Ribbonsherâs internal problems here means dragging all of that into your home.â
Eileen was serious, but Cedric spoke lightly:
âWe can deal with anything. I said Iâd handle it.â
âWhy you?â
âBecause if you think of me as family, then I think of you that way too.â
Eileen fell silent. Cedric meant every word.
That was what made him different from everyone else.
Even if Eileen disappeared tomorrow, Cedric would still protect Zeon. He would take responsibility from beginning to end.
Everyone else might betray herâbut Cedric wouldnât.
âAnd besides, I have you. âWeâ can deal with it together.â
He was saying, If youâre with me, I can do anything.
âAs long as you donât go to the capital.â
âGoing to the capital isâŚâ
The capital wasnât only about Lennard. It was also about the Cassier household.
The Cassier problem followed Eileen here. Dianaâs poisoning wouldnât have happened if Eileen werenât involved. So she believed she needed to separate herself from Lowellâs troubles.
Maybe facing Count Cassier directly in the capital will be easier, she had thought. Gathering evidence might be faster there. And Eileen was always the type to handle things personally.
Cedric seemed to read her thoughts.
âItâs dangerous.â
He definitely meant Count Cassier. Cedricâs hand had unconsciously rested on his sword hilt. He always did that when he sensed danger.
âI shouldâve just cut him down then. Right?â
His grip tightened, like he was about to actually draw his sword.
âWhen I took you out of the Cassier house.â
ââŚIf you had, that would’ve been a disaster.â
But if Cedric had truly needed to, he would have swung without hesitation. From the beginning, he had shielded her with his own bodyâand she had let him.
âThat timeâŚâ
Eileen gently placed her hand over Cedricâs tense one. He immediately relaxed.
âThank you.â
His eyes shook for a moment at the sudden closeness.
âI told youâit wasnât something to thank me for.â
âI just⌠I canât remember if I ever said it.â
She felt she needed to say it properly.
Her breath drifted into the cold air. She reached up and brushed the snow from his hair.
âItâll pile up again anyway. And your hands are freezing.â
Cedric obediently bowed his head so she could brush off the snow.
Her fingers brushed his forehead and hair gently. When she pulled back, he grabbed her hand.
âIf youâre thankful⌠donât go.â
He pulled off his glove and tossed it aside, muttering something like, âYour hands are ice,â as he held her hands tightly.
Then he lifted them toward his face and breathed warm air onto them.
ââŚOkay. I wonât go.â
If Cedric wanted this, she felt she had no choice. Eileen knew she couldnât win against him.
Did he know that?
That she honestly couldnât refuse him?
âReally?â
His lips brushed the tips of her frozen fingers, making her flinch. She wanted to pull away, but he held her tighter.
âYouâre really not going to the capital?â
âYou told me not to.â
The truth wasâEileen also wanted to stay.
She could finally admit it.
âI want to stay here too.â
If she could. If she was allowed.
Even if the winter cold froze her hands, there was someone who would hold them and warm them.
***
âIâm sorry. The Ribbonsher house is important to me. And I made a promise to the Marchioness.â
Eileen explained why she could no longer travel to the capital. She needed to settle things properly, so she met Prince Lennardâs aide.
âItâs fine. His Highness will understand.â
Kess Dorian replied in a polite, formal tone.
âHe only asked me to check that you were doing well.â
But his expression clearly showed disappointment.
Eileen wasnât unconcerned about Lennard either.
She wanted him to settle firmly as Crown Princeâthe future of the Empire depended on him.
Why is everything happening all at once�
If the problems came one at a time, she would deal with them one by one.
Instead, she felt a dark storm approaching from every directionâLennard, Ribbonsher, Lowell. Any of them could erupt into disaster.
After much hesitation, she made her decision.
âTell him⌠âDonât let Dahlia stay in the Empire.ââ
ââŚPardon?â
âHeâll understand. Tell him to get Dahlia out of the Empire. Hide her somewhere far away. In another country. Anywhere.â
Silence fell between them.
Just the name alone would tell Lennard the truth.
Still, Kess Dorian asked to confirm:
ââŚWho is Dahlia?â
âThe woman my brother Lennard loves.â
This was the secret that tied them together.
âYou know she can’t become Crown Princess.â
âFeelings donât follow rules, little sister. Youâll understand when youâre older.â
âAge has nothing to do with it. That can never be approved.â
Eileen had scolded him while pretending not to know anythingâeven when the emperor and empress asked about the rumor.
That was the least she could do.
âThe emperor probably thought a few years abroad would cool his feelings⌠but that didnât happen.â
The âoriginal storyâ information came rushing back.
âSo eventually theyâll try to find out who she is and get rid of her.â
In the original story, Dahlia disappeared. Later, her body was found dead by the riverâan unclear, suspicious death.
It was the event that pushed Lennard halfway into madness.
And he blamed the Emperor.
And⌠he wasnât entirely wrong.
âShe might die.â
The original timeline was already collapsing. Events were happening out of order. Anything could happen now.
If Eileen had gone to the capital, she couldâve helped hide Dahlia better. But now she couldnâtâso she needed Dahlia far away.
âBut Their Majesties donât seem cruel enough to do something like that.â
âYou never know with people.â
That was the strange part.
Eileen knew the Emperor and Empress werenât the type to kill an innocent girl. They wouldnât want to become enemies with their own son.
So why did Dahlia still die in the original timeline?
AnywayâŚ
If she protected Dahlia now, Lennard wouldnât have a reason to resent his parents.
âAnd His Highness is⌠that serious?â
âSerious enough that I could negotiate with the Emperor to give Dahlia noble status.â
The Crown Prince and Emperor were already on terrible terms. But even the Emperor should be ready to compromise by now.
Maybe there was still room for peace.
âI might not be able to mediate. So Iâm giving you a very important mission.â
He should figure the rest out on his own.
ââŚThat truly is a heavy responsibility.â
Kess collapsed into a chair like he no longer wanted to return to the capital. Eileen sympathized deeply.
âMy brother isnât dumb. Just help him stop panicking and hiding her. Make him think more clearly.â
ââŚAll right. I understand.â
At least that part would go smoothly.
Lennard might be irritated she told his aide everything, but a good outcome would fix that.
âBut even if that worksâŚâ
Eileenâs own future was painfully unclear.
Her ability to âknow the future,â to know peopleâs âfates,â helped everyoneâhelped save lives.
She could save Dahliaâs life.
She could stop Lennard from falling into despair.
So why couldnât she see anything about her own fate?
ââŚMaybe I can.â
She was about to sigh when her gaze landed on somethingâa wooden bird figurine she had received from Prince Arwin of Theorn.
It was sitting on a shelf, untouched since the day she got it.
âHe said it was a communication tool. Right?â
Eileen slowly stood up, took the wooden bird, and whispered:
âWhican, deliver a message.â
Nothing happened. As expected.
It felt silly talking into the air. She put it back down and turned aroundâ
And then a familiar voice spoke behind her.
ââŚSo youâre finally contacting me.â