~Chapter 63~
Eileen observed Chester from a distance, watching as he conversed with Lady Ribbonshire. Their conversation seemed calm and unhurried, without any signs of agitation. However, Eileen could tell from the way Lady Ribbonshire pursed her lips that she wasnât entirely happy about having to ask for such significant “help.”
âSarah has always had a strong sense of pride, even more than me, despite being from the royal family. Itâs typical for noble families, though,â Eileen thought.
Lady Ribbonshireâs family had never been one to ask for help. Even when Eileenâs grandmother, Rowina, was unaware that the former Duke had retired from the position of Chancellor, Lady Ribbonshire never mentioned it. Rowina would have probably appealed to her brother if she had known.
âI should have been more cautious about her,â Eileen thought, studying Lady Ribbonshire carefully. She noticed how the shadows under her eyes were more pronounced in the bright sunlight, and how tightly she gripped her cane, not as an ornament but as something she truly relied on. Her wrist, exposed as her sleeves shifted, looked unnaturally thin.
âThis feels familiar,â Eileen realized. The frailness reminded her of the last months before her grandmother passed. The trembling hands had been an all-too-familiar sight.
â…Weâve finished talking. The herbs will keep coming, and the payment will come later,â Cedricâs voice broke into her thoughts.
She hadnât even realized heâd come back until he spoke.
âCedric, Iâll talk to her for a bit,â Eileen said.
âDo you have to?â he asked, a little exasperated.
âSheâs someone Iâve known for a long time. She was my grandmotherâs close friend,â Eileen explained.
Cedric sighed. “Iâve been pretty lenient considering how she tried to take you away.”
âI appreciate it. There was no need to go that far, though,â Eileen said, feeling somewhat guilty that Lady Ribbonshire had made such an effort on her behalf.
âEnough with the talk about whatâs already done. Lowell isnât exactly poor, you know,â Cedric muttered, clearly impatient to move on from the subject. He just wanted to get Lady Ribbonshire out of the way as quickly as possible, deal with the situation, and be done with it.
âLady Ribbonshire is not the type to push through with something like this just for her own benefit,â Eileen continued, thinking back to how her grandmother had once used a letter to push for her engagement to Zeon, even when it wasnât a preferred choice.
“She really wanted you to marry Zeon?” Cedric asked, his arms crossed. He had met Zeon before, at a meeting of great families, and though he was a bit younger then, he had been weak and timid, not at all someone Eileen seemed to match well with.
âMaybe, maybe not,â Eileen replied, trying to downplay the question. But Cedric didnât let it go.
âWhat do you think about Zeon?â Cedric asked.
Eileen didnât hesitate. “Zeon is a good boy.”
Cedric had asked her these questions for a reason, because when he talked to Lady Ribbonshire, he had felt like the atmosphere of her family was similar to Eileenâs. It felt unnerving, and he wanted to distance himself from it quickly.
“Zeon is like Diana to you,” Cedric said, thoughtfully.
âI donât plan on marrying Diana,â Eileen responded bluntly.
“Exactly,” Cedric said, his tone softening a little.
But before Eileen could react, she noticed Cedric had spaced out for a moment, and she took the opportunity to slip past him. “You’re talking to your uncle. He looks like heâs waiting for you,” she said, her voice unusually subdued.
âDid something happen?â Cedric asked, noticing the change in her tone.
âNo, nothingâs happened,â Eileen replied, trying to reassure him. âBut your uncle can be a bit cold in his manner, though heâs a good man. Heâs better at swordsmanship than I am.â
That was an important point. Chester Lowell was the only one Cedric truly respected. As a warrior, Cedric had always acknowledged Chesterâs strength, despite his personal feelings.
âOf course, Iâll surpass him soon,â Cedric added, not fully realizing the weight of his words.
âOf course,â Eileen responded, a small smile forming as she raised an eyebrow, almost as if she were testing him.
But Cedric wasnât quite finished. “Anyway, when Iâm not around, someone has to protect you,” he said seriously.
Through this situation, he had realized that he couldnât be in two places at once. And when it came to strength, he knew he was the only one Eileen could fully rely on. Sure, he had Cashel, but Cashel usually operated separately from him, and he wasnât in a position to truly take his place.
“So, you asked your uncle to hold onto me for you?” Eileen asked, sensing where this was going.
“Yes. If thereâs any bloodshed, I trust heâll keep you safe,” Cedric replied firmly.
It was a pure, clean trust, and it was something Cedric couldnât imagine anyone else offering.
Eileen watched him for a moment, then suddenly spoke.
âI trust you, Cedric,â she said quietly.
Her hand briefly touched his chest, just for a moment, before it fell away. But the heat spread through her body as if a fire had ignited within her.
âDid you hurt yourself?â Eileen asked, noticing him rubbing his chest as he approached his uncle.
âNo, Iâm fine,â Cedric replied, though his tone was hesitant.
Eileen could tell something was off, but she didnât press him. Instead, she took a deep breath, willing herself to relax.
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âHowâs your health?â Eileen asked as she approached Lady Ribbonshire, who was preparing to board her carriage.
Lady Ribbonshire sighed deeply and sat down, adjusting her dress.
âYouâre observant. I canât hide anything from you,â she said.
âWhy didnât you say anything?â Eileen asked, her concern showing in her voice.
âI can still hold on for a while. Iâm not that easy to break,â Lady Ribbonshire replied, trying to sound firm, though it was clear from her appearance that she was struggling.
âIf you were truly fine, you wouldnât have rushed to take me,â Eileen said softly, noticing the frailty in Lady Ribbonshireâs actions.
âI need someone who can support Zeon. He canât manage alone. Iâm sorry, but after thinking it through, I realized you were my best option,â Lady Ribbonshire confessed.
âBut my grandmother wouldnât have wanted me to take on such a huge responsibility,â Eileen replied, her voice tinged with sadness.
âYouâre right. She understood,â Lady Ribbonshire said. “She knew what I was going through.”
Eileen knew the reason for their strained relationship. Her grandmother had been sharp and perceptive, and now, it seemed Lady Ribbonshire was looking for someone to fill a role that Eileen wasnât sure she was ready for.
Lady Ribbonshire paused, then said, âYouâre capable. Youâll be able to help him.â
Eileen wasnât sure what to say. She hadnât planned to take on such a responsibility. But she nodded slowly, understanding that her role in all this might be unavoidable.
âIâll make sure Zeon is well taken care of,â Eileen said, feeling a burden settle in her chest.
“Just one more thing. Please show some compassion toward Zeon. Heâs a good boy,” Lady Ribbonshire added.
Eileen hesitated for a moment, unsure of what to say. But in the end, she nodded. âI will. I promise.â
Lady Ribbonshire smiled faintly and then gestured for the carriage to start.
âTell Cedric I appreciate his care. He looks just like my late husband when he was young. Heâll be a great Duke,â Lady Ribbonshire said as the carriage door closed.
Eileen stood there for a moment, feeling like she had just said her final goodbye. She tried to push away the unsettling feeling, but it lingered.
The future of Zeonâand her role in itânow seemed even more uncertain than before.