#95. I Have No Intention of Being Apart from You
In the blink of an eye, the person he was guarding had gone pale, sweat pouring down her face like rain.
And thenâ
âAre you all right?â
Contrasting with her deathly white complexion, bright red blood began to trickle from her nose.
Keslan, moving so quickly it was barely visible, handed her a handkerchief. But Gretaâs arms didnât move.
To him, it looked as though she was refusing, which only unsettled him further. But in truth, Greta hadnât refused his handkerchief at all.
She simply didnât even have the strength to lift a finger.
If sheâd had the strength, she would have wiped away the foul metallic blood staining her lips.
Though she usually didnât shy away from the stench of blood, this was differentâthis was the stench of failure.
It had all happened in just the span of a few blinks, but Keslan carefully assessed her condition and concluded she wasnât about to die.
He placed the unused handkerchief gently beside her and began to scan the room.
As always, he searched the air itself for anything unusual, anything abnormal. But soon, his composure cracked.
More shaken now than he had been by Gretaâs sudden collapse, he realized he could find no trace of an attack.
Of course. There hadnât been one.
But if it wasnât an attack, then what had reduced her to this state in mere moments?
He examined the room again and again but found nothing out of place.
Then, just as he turned back toward Greta and their eyes metâ
He saw it.
Something strange, unnatural, unearthly.
It was so ominous, so repulsive, it was impossible to describe.
A sense far beyond the usual unease he always felt when stepping into this room.
Every one of his senses screamed in alarm, warning him that what he was seeing was dangerous.
The diplomat he had found suspicious before entering the room no longer seemed humanâjust a shell containing something horribly twisted.
Keslan fought down the instinct to gag, forced his face blank, and bowed slowly.
ââŚI beg forgiveness for failing to protect you.â
Greta said nothing. She simply waved her hand weakly.
Her head felt as though it were on fire. Her eyes throbbed so badly she wanted to tear them out, and now even her ears rang with a piercing hum.
ââŚLeave.â
Her voice was faint, barely audible, but Keslan, attuned to her every sound, understood immediately.
âShall I summon the court physicianââ
âNoâŚ! Wait. Yes. Call him.â
She had snapped sharply at first, then reversed herself just as quickly.
Her condition was far too severe not to call a physicianâit would only raise suspicion if she didnât.
Even if she had erased his memory, she had to act naturally.
The spell she had placed on him was imperfect. Who knew when or how it might unravel?
She regretted trying to turn him into her puppet so hastily, but right now, she only wanted everything gone so she could rest.
The moment she gave permission, Keslan left the room.
It was faster to fetch help himself than to tug the bell rope for a servant.
Stepping into the hall, he spotted a passing servant.
âSummon a court physician. The Norden Kingdomâs diplomat is unwell.â
The servant hesitated, carefully choosing his words before replying.
âThe physician assigned to this palace has already departed. Iâll fetch one from another wing.â
âDeparted? Where to? Did something happen to him?â
The physicians assigned to foreign diplomats were always among the empireâs finest. The empire couldnât risk even the suggestion that a foreign envoy might fall illâor worseâwhile under their care.
And if something had happened to the physician, Keslan should have been informed immediately. Without one, his own responsibilities as bodyguard increased dramatically.
Yet he had heard nothing. His gaze turned sharp.
âNothing happened, sir,â the servant said with a puzzled shake of the head.
âThen why call anotherââ
âBecause his dismissal hour has already passed.â
Even a physician assigned to diplomats was not held past hours against his will. Leaving at the appointed time was perfectly ordinary.
Still, Keslanâs question made it seem odd. The servant didnât press and simply added:
âIâll fetch another physician as quickly as possible.â
Keslanâs expression twisted strangely, as though struck from behind.
But with his head bowed, the servant never noticed.
âSir knight?â
ââŚYes. Hurry.â
Watching the servant scurry away, Keslan muttered under his breath, still wearing that unsettled expression.
âDismissal hour? That much time has passed already?â
He had only been in Gretaâs room for a short while.
And yet, somehow, a large span of time had vanished from his memory.
âYou said the brand hurts sometimes.â
âYes.â
Oliviaâs eyes fixed on Cryerâs collarboneâspecifically, on the brand etched there.
âWhy do you think that is? If itâs not only you, but Suga too, then there must be some common factor.â
She remembered the night sheâd gone through the shadows to question Suga about his brand.
Just as she was leaving, Suga had hesitantly stopped her.
âIt might be nothing⌠but it has to do with the brand.â
âIf itâs about the brand, nothing is trivial. Tell me anything.â
Encouraged by Oliviaâs firm tone, Suga had rubbed at his brand and confessed:
âIt hurt.â
âWhen? Since when?â
âRecently. Well⌠back when my parents were alive, it hurt often. But afterward, not at all. Only lately has it started again.â
âAnd now?â
At that, Suga had brightened into a smile, shaking his head.
âNo. It doesnât hurt now.â
âGood. Iâm glad.â
âSo I thought about itâŚâ
He had remembered: while mention of his parents sometimes caused pain, there was something else that triggered it more often.
Fidgeting nervously with his small fingers, Suga had admitted:
âI think it hurts when Iâm with Lady Ruir.â
âWhat? Me?â
Olivia recalled Ambreâs bewildered face as she had pointed to her own chest. Her brows furrowed deeply.
âWhatâs going on? He hurts when heâs with Ambre? But you said it hurts when youâre with me. Could it be Ambââ
âIt never hurt with her.â
Before she could even finish, Cryer cut her off flatly.
The speed of his denial made Olivia narrow her eyes suspiciously. He only smiled faintly and pointed to the brand.
âIt has only ever hurt when I was with you.â
Depending on how one heard it, his words could sound strangely⌠intimate.
Only Olivia could make him hurt.
Technically, it was the brand that hurtâbut since Cryer himself couldnât remember pain, the only person capable of making him feel any trace of it, body or soul, was her.
And wasnât such meaning usually reserved for loversâthose who saw each other as their one and only?
Not that either of them was thinking of each other that way.
Olivia took his words literally.
âSo basically, Iâm the reason youâre in pain.â
Unwittingly the cause of his suffering, she stomped her foot in frustration.
Like a rabbit thumping its hind leg when annoyedâso cute, so unbearably cuteâthat Cryer couldnât help but chuckle.
âDonât laugh! No, waitâlet me ask properly. When exactly does it hurt? Is it constant whenever weâre together, orââ
She trailed off, her eyes dimming with worry.
ââŚDonât tell me itâs constant?â
âNo. So donât make that face.â
Reading the fear behind her expression, he added firmly:
âAnd donât even think of that lookâlike we should stay apart because of it.â
âWhat? But if it really does hurt all the time, wouldnât it be betterââ
âThereâs no lasting pain. And even if there were, Iâd never consider staying away.â
His answer was sharp, absolute, with no room for argument.
âYou mean you actually enjoy being in pain?â she blurted.
âNo. Why does your mind always leap in that direction?â
With a sigh, he made himself perfectly clear.
âI have no intention of being apart from you. No matter the circumstances.â
His dark crimson gaze fixed on her, as if engraving her into his very eyes.
And faced with that gaze, Olivia couldnât bring herself to joke.
Not even to say: You donât need to go that far. Iâll find a way to break your slave contract no matter what.
Instead, she found herself saying something she hadnât even known she was about to say.
âI⌠I donât either. I donât want to be apart from you.â
Startled by her own words, Olivia clapped a hand over her mouth.
But words, once spoken, cannot be taken back.
And in the next momentâ
Slowly, like ink spreading across blank paper, Cryerâs expression transformed.
Joy. Thrill. Desire. Restraint.
And more, so many more emotions threatening to break free all at once.
âUh, Cryâmmph!â
He swallowed her whole in a single kiss.