Chapter 113.
Moonlit Birthday (8)
Walking a few minutes outside the inn, we reached a clearing where there were no trees around. The sky above was filled with countless stars.
Iâm not very knowledgeable about constellations. Iâve heard of the Winter Triangle and the Winter Hexagon⌠maybe Iâll look them up someday.
What a view you canât get in the city. How wonderful.
Itâs getting late and a bit chilly. Later, itâll be nice to warm up in the open-air bath.
But first⌠I want to share this starry sky with everyone. Noâfirst, I want to show it to her.
To that beautiful girl, whose beauty rivals this night sky⌠I want her to see this. And in this mood, I want to give this to her.
I sneak a glance at the item Iâve kept tucked close all this time.
âHmm?â
Someone is walking toward us from the inn.
Their footsteps get closer, and the moonlight reveals them.
âTsukiyoâŚâ
The fact that sheâs coming⌠at the perfect timing.
I rush to her side.
âTsukiyo, look at this sky! Isnât it beautiful?â
âYes, it is.â
Huh? Her reaction seems⌠muted. Usually, sheâd say something like, âWow, itâs amazing!â in that clear, bright voice of hers.
Now that I notice, Tsukiyoâs expression is tense. She looks⌠angry.
âWhatâs wrong?â
âTaiyĹ⌠Iâm very angry right now. Do you know why?â
Just a few minutes ago, she was smiling.
Her gaze is serious, directly on me. Thereâs none of the lightheartedness from earlier today while snowboarding or at the bath.
âThis is the second strongest anger Iâve felt in my life.â
âUh⌠the strongest?â
âThe time when you cornered me, and I ran to the bathroom.â
âBoth⌠involve me!?â
Something I did must have made her angry⌠I replay todayâs events in my head.
It must have been after the bath. What did I do?
âWas it that dinner portions were too small?â
âNo.â
âThat my favorite fried shrimp wasnât served?â
âNo.â
âThat time I took the fatty tuna sushi you were aiming for⌠right in front of you?â
âAh! So you did it on purpose! Thatâs awful!â
Thatâs not it either⌠I canât think of anything else.
âWhy are all your guesses about food?â
âYouâre always so kind⌠your smiling face is so charming that I canât imagine being angry at anything else.â
âUgh! D-Donât say such heart-throbbing things!â
I didnât mean to make her heart flutterâŚ
Tsukiyoâs cheeks turn red, and her big round eyes look away.
ââŚTaiyĹ, when is your birthday?â
ââŚHow do you know that?â
âYou dropped your card case.â
Tsukiyo hands me the card case. Damn, I dropped it. My student ID is in the first slot, which has my birthday on it.
âTaiyĹ, happy 17th birthdayâŚâ
ââŚThank you.â
RightâFebruary 7th is both Tsukiyoâs birthday and mine.
Tsukiyo leans forward.
âWhy didnât you say anything!? If you had⌠we couldâve celebrated together!â
âEveryone wanted to celebrate your birthday. Mine⌠it doesnât matter.â
âDo you really feel that way!?â
Her tone sharpens. Sheâs so heated⌠did I really make such a huge mistake?
I recall her words in the private bath earlier:
We all think of you as a precious friend.
Everyone had nodded to her words. I should have understood sooner.
âSorry, I couldnât bring myself to say anything. I was only thinking about celebrating you⌠and put myself second.â
âThatâs always the case! You always care about others, about someone else! You donât care about yourself at all!â
Tsukiyo continues, her voice trembling.
âI wanted to celebrate too. Iâve been thinking for so long about what birthday present I could get you!â
I couldnât say a word. She thought of me that much⌠Of course, she did.
Since May, when we first started having birthday celebrations in our group, weâd celebrated everyoneâs birthdaysâthough not as big as today. Iâd always participated, suggested presents.
I could celebrate others, but Iâd never been celebrated. I had assumed it from the start. So when we planned Tsukiyoâs birthday, I knew our birthdays were the sameâbut I didnât tell anyone.
âItâs not too late. Tell everyone now.â
âDonât! Donât do that!â
I lost my temper and said it sharply. Tsukiyo flinched and looked down.
Damn⌠I didnât mean to scare her. I calm myself.
âItâs fine. As long as everyoneâs having fun, thatâs enough⌠Thatâs plenty.â
âI⌠canât accept that.â
âThenâŚâ
I donât want to be celebrated in this situation. If I were, everyone would feel awkwardâand thatâs worse.
But Tsukiyo showing me her feelings and wanting to celebrate me is more than enough.
I donât need anyone else to celebrate me.
I pull Tsukiyoâs hand toward me, and in the same motion, hug her tightly with both arms.
My left hand wraps around her waist; my right hand moves to her chestnut hair. I hug her smoothly, surprising even myself.
âAhâŚâ
âThen celebrate me. I donât need anyone else. If itâs just you, Tsukiyo, thatâs enough.â
ââŚThatâs unfair.â
Tsukiyo looks like she might cry. Words catch in her throat; her usual clear voice doesnât come out.
I cherish this side of herâthe emotions she only shows me.
I loosen my arms⌠and let her go.
âI wonât be satisfied, but if itâs what you want⌠Iâll endure it.â
âThank you⌠Iâm sorry.â
ââŚThe night sky is beautiful, isnât it?â
I turn and look back, nodding deeply at her words.
Yes⌠it really is beautiful. We look up at the sky together, enjoying this star-filled night, just the two of us.