Chapter 20
Seeing Brinnen being so active about the marriage made Idette feel strange.
Maybe it was because of the dying Duchess.
â…Itâs not because itâs Brinnen, but I donât want to marry anyone,â she said honestly. âStill, since I need to avoid the temple, I think Iâll need at least a pretend marriage for now. I was hoping to do it with someone who wouldnât feel pressured even if we break it off laterâŚâ
âOkay.â
âDo you actually want to marry me?â
Idette asked carefully. She needed to be sure before this went any further.
âYes.â
âWhy?â
â…Because youâre not the type of person who would suggest marriage for selfish reasons. I like that.â
âThatâs it?â
âWhat more is there to need?â
It was such a plain, calm answer that it left Idette feeling uneasy. She narrowed her eyes at him.
âIf I die⌠what will you do then?â
â…Why do you keep talking about dying?â Brinnen said, scolding her gently.
He didnât like how casually she spoke about it.
âThen what if I donât die? Will the marriage actually happen?â
His look said, Isnât that obvious?
âTo be honest,â she continued, âI want to live, but my body is weak. I could die anytime. Thatâs why I donât want to get married. But I really donât want to become the templeâs Saintess either.â
âOkay.â
âSo⌠Iâd like some kind of help. Brinnen, if youâre okay with it, letâs make a contract.â
âA contract?â
âYes. One that lets us end our engagement easily if you ever meet someone you really like.â
Brinnen seemed to think for a moment, then nodded. And so, their âcontractâ was made â even though they were only twelve years old.
That was why Idette didnât take it too seriously. They were just kids; it wasnât binding. Either of them could change their minds at any time.
â…Still, just in case, should we write a contract on paper?â
It was Brinnen who suggested writing it down, so Idette figured he didnât plan on keeping it long-term either.
âAlright!â she said brightly.
She quickly brought out paper and wrote:
***
Contract
I, Idette Lushe, make a contract with Brinnen Sheyard.
The agreement is for a temporary marriage.
(â Must be kept secret!)
Term: âĄâĄâĄâĄ
***
Since she had never written anything like this before, she hesitated and asked,
âCan we set the limit to when weâre 18 years old?â
Eighteen was the official marriage age â and also when Idette was supposed to marry Brinnen in the original story.
If they ended the engagement by then, it would be perfect.
âYes,â Brinnen replied.
âDo you have any conditions?â
â…What if, by the time I turn eighteen, I still donât have someone I like?â
âThen weâll still break the engagement, of course.â
What was so hard about that?
After all, Brinnen would eventually fall in love with Hezbeni, and Idette could simply step aside. She could just tell her father she had no plans to marry and live quietly.
By then, the temple problem would be taken care of anyway â thanks to Hezbeni.
âThen write that part down â that if we donât find anyone we like, weâll still cancel it.â
âAnything else you want?â
âNo. Do you?â
âHm⌠no, thatâs all.â
So they wrote two copies and each kept one. Somehow, Idette felt relieved after that.
***
Brinnen wanted Idette to be his real marriage partner someday.
He could tell Idette wasnât feeling the same way, but that didnât matter.
It wasnât that she disliked him â she just worried too much.
She said her weak health was a flaw, but Brinnen didnât care.
Idette was one of the few people who didnât look down on him.
People treated Brinnen in four different ways:
those who hated him, those who tried to please him, those who didnât care, and those who worried about him.
Most people in his life fit into one of those extremes.
His father â and the Count Ivan family â belonged to the first group: those who hated him.
The ones trying to please him were people chasing after his familyâs power.
The indifferent ones didnât need the Sheyard familyâs backing â like the Lushe family or even the imperial family.
And then there were the ones who worried about him â like his mother.
Idette was similar to Count Lushe, but she seemed to care about him a little more.
Still, she wasnât like his mother. His mother worried about every little thing he did, treating him like a child who couldnât stand on his own.
Idette wasnât like that. She didnât fuss over everything. She only seemed to worry about how fragile and temporary his surroundings were â as if she knew he didnât have many people he could depend on.
Brinnen was sharp enough to notice it.
She wasnât avoiding him because she disliked him â she was keeping her distance out of concern.
Maybe her words earlier â âI could die anytimeâ â had come from the same place his motherâs concern did.
If Idette really were to die one day, Brinnen wanted to be by her side until the end.
It was better than being stuck here, in a house that suffocated him.
Most of the servants followed his fatherâs orders, not his motherâs or his.
Still, he didnât resent it. His mother was sick â of course she came first.
âMarriageâŚâ he murmured.
When the topic of marriage came up, he hadnât objected.
He thought maybe marrying Idette wouldnât be so bad. In fact, he wanted to.
Honestly, Brinnen was in a hurry. Before sending him to the duchy, Count Ivan had tried to arrange his marriage to Melody, his daughter.
Even the recent letters hinted that the Count planned to push that match soon.
Marrying Melody Ivan sounded miserable â so Idette was much better.
This marriage contract was mutual benefit for both sides.
â…Until eighteen, huh.â
Even though they set that limit, Brinnen didnât intend to let it end there.
He wanted this âcontractâ to become real â and permanent.
His mother had told everyone she was the one who wanted this engagement, but in truth, it had been Brinnen who went to her first and said:
âI want to marry Lady Lushe.â
âDid you fall in love with her?â his mother had asked.
Her eyes had sparkled with a light he hadnât seen in so long â she looked alive again.
Was it love? Maybe not exactly. But if love was required to make the marriage happen, then yes â heâd call it that.
âAlright, son. Leave it to me,â she had said, smiling warmly.
And that was how it all began.
The Duke hadnât cared at all about this marriage, but his mother had worked hard to bring Count Lushe and his wife to visit.
Idette had no idea about any of that. She probably thought she was just being swept along by fate â but Brinnen had chosen it.
So even when they turned eighteenâŚ
Brinnen still wanted to marry Idette.
This contract had no real power over him.
He would make sure of that.
Thinking nothing of it, Brinnen stared at the contract for a long moment â then tossed it into the fireplace.
With a whoosh, it caught fire, curling into ash in seconds.
The âcontractâ disappeared completely.