After the examination, I went straight to the guild.
With Astiâs introduction, I registered my name in the rolls. I couldnât take quests while pregnant, but I could still procure ingredients and brew my own recovery potions to sellâjust realizing that steadied me with relief.
While I was there, I asked them to confirm whether Iâd received the compensation from Leon.
The answer came back cleanly.
No deposit. Nothing held on my behalf.
Had my demand been too high�
It wasnât as though I depended on it to live, but I knew the amount Iâd named was within Leonâs means. Iâd even left enough margin that he could still support Ciara and her child. It was money heâd had after we split living costs and Sheila managed the householdâso Iâd assumed it would be paid quickly.
âSpeaking of compensationâŚâ
âEhâ?â
My heart gave an unflattering jump. It was unsettling when someone began speaking of the very thing Iâd been turning over in my head.
âWe can also file a claim against Ciara.â
I forced my breathing to settle and looked straight at Asti.
It was trueâan affair doesnât happen with only one person.
But if I demanded money from Ciara, what then? If her life grew desperate⌠if she took it out on little Lilia⌠the thought made my chest tighten. I couldnât step forward so easily.
âIs Ciara working?â
âI donât believe she is, not now. Her living expenses⌠are likely covered by Leon. From what I saw, she managed within what he provided.â
My brow knitted before I could stop it.
In our marriage, we both contributed. Leon earned more, so it was natural he paid more. But if he could maintain another household with what was left overâthen Ciara wasnât living on her money at all.
If I took compensation from her, the source would still be Leonâs pocket.
What meaning would there be in that?
âIf she isnât working, where would it come from? Leon, wouldnât it. If Iâm going to receive anything, Iâd rather it be paid with money she earned herself.
âBut⌠I want Lilia to be raised properly.â
When people are pushed to the edge, they often lash out at those who cannot resist. I couldnât bear the idea of that child becoming the target.
âI understand. But if you change your mind, tell me at once.â
âThank you.â
Some might call me soft.
But for now, this was enough.
Life after that passed in quiet days.
The baby grew steadily; after three months, my belly began to show a little. Soon it started to flutter now and thenâsoft, insistent movements that made my affection swell day by day.
Iâd wondered if I would feel lonely, if living alone would be hard.
But I had already spent more than half my life waiting aloneâLeon gone on expeditions. In truth, I did not find it unbearable.
If anything, not having to sit with a knot of worry in my chest while waiting for someoneâs return made me feel lighter.
And yetâ
There was one problem I could not ignore.
My recovery potions, the foundation of my income, did not sell here as they did in the capital.
I didnât think it was because I was a newcomer. People did pick them up and examine them with interest.
Asti and the knights of the capital had praised them so highly⌠and still, in this place, they simply didnât move.
Was my work never as valuable as I believed?
Regret, sharp and unpleasant, pressed inâespecially when I thought of the âpunishmentâ Iâd imposed upon the knights by raising my prices again.
I began to feel I needed a plan.
âLady Sheila, you look pale. Whatâs wrong?â
Perhaps my lifeless expression during my prenatal checkup had been too obvious. Doctor Bella asked with open concern.
âI⌠Iâm just feeling anxious about the future.â
âThe baby is doing well. But⌠is there something else troubling you?â
I hesitated. Was it acceptable to speak of money like this?
But I still had no one here I could consult easily.
In the end, I drew a breath and told her the truth.
âMy income has decreased from before.
âIâm supplying the guild with recovery potions, but the sales⌠arenât very good.â
From my space magic, I retrieved the potions that had been returned and set them before her.
Because the ingredients came from the Spirit Forestârich with dormant powerâthese batches felt even stronger than what Iâd produced in the capital.
Yet demand was poor.
The forestâs materials sold out whenever they appeared, but I couldnât gather them often. And now that my belly was growing, bending to harvest was already becoming difficult.
If I was to live here, I needed at least enough sales to eat without worry.
But at this rate⌠it was honestly tight.
âHm⌠yes. These are very high purityâupper-tier potions, certainly. ButâŚâ
âBut?â
âThey may not suit the people of this town.â
ââŚIs that truly the case?â
âYes. Your potions are what Iâd call balancedâuseful in a wide range of situations.
âBut the adventurers here⌠many of them fight recklessly. What sells best right now is a potion that drags someone back from the brinkânear-death to full recovery.â
ââŚWhat?â
âAnd that sort of medicine is already being made by Delila.â
So that was it.
My potions were excellentâbut because their effects were steady and evenly distributed, those who wanted an immediate surge found them lacking.
And if someone else already supplied the townâs most sought-after product, of course people would flock there.
âIs there any good methodâŚ?â
âThen why not look through Lady Mistyâs collection? She was famous even around here. There must be research notes or texts.â
Misty.
Astiâs motherâthe woman whose grave I had greeted when I first arrived.
Since then, Iâd visited regularly, offering prayers and often seeing the spirit lord as well.
âBut⌠it would be rude to look without permission.â
âThatâs true. Then ask Asti. Honestly, you should be speaking to him about this in the first place.â
The words struck me cleanly.
It was true. Ever since Leon, I had leaned on Asti again and again. He gathered evidence. He moved first, guided me, supported me before I even knew what I needed.
And yet⌠I feared relying too much. I feared becoming a burden. Even when he stopped by simply to check on the house, I couldnât fully relax.
âI worry that if I depend on him too much, itâll become a nuisance.â
âA nuisance? Asti is very fond of you, you know.â
I had heard it once, from his own mouth.
At that time, I still had a husbandâat least in nameâand Iâd brushed it off as a joke.
Even now, I was indebted to him beyond measure. He didnât even accept rent, insisting that an empty house only rotted.
âAnd besides,â Doctor Bella continued gently, âeven without romance, heâs a good man, isnât he?â
That, I could agree with without hesitation.
If Asti hadnât been there, my love for Leon would have cooled more slowly. I might still have been in that house in the capital, waiting for Leon to return.
He was the one who guided me when I couldnât be calm.
Thinking of it made something in my chest stirâsoftly, awkwardly, like the brush of a fingertip against a bruise.
That night, Asti came by.
Perhaps because Doctor Bellaâs words still echoed in my head, my greeting turned stiff. Uneven.
Asti, however, wore the same easy expression as alwaysâso naturally untroubled that it felt absurd I was the only one flustered.
I shoved the memory down.
âUm⌠I have a favor to ask. Would it be all right?â
âYes! Of courseâwhat is it?â
The way his eyes widened, the bright delight on his faceâsomething in me tightened sweetly, painfully.
âIf itâs all right⌠I was hoping you might let me see any books Lady Misty left behind.â
âMy motherâs books? Ah. Theyâre on the second floor.â
âLetâs go,â he said, and held out his hand.
It was so closeâdid he mean to use teleportation again? The confusion made my response slow.
ââŚAhâno, sorry. That isnât necessary, is it.â
âOhâright. Sorry.â
He pulled his hand back quickly and headed for the stairs as though fleeing.
And it startled me, how⌠disappointed I felt.
My heart began to beat too fast; I scolded myself for it and followed after him.
âWatch the step,â he said quietly. âPlease.â
âThank you.â
When my belly grew larger, my feet would be harder to see. I climbed carefully.
Asti was a few steps ahead, turning back now and then, as if checking I was all right.
It was nothing.
Truly, it was a small thing.
And yetâ
My chest still ached, faint and persistent.
I kept my gaze lowered as I climbed, determined not to let him see.






