Chapter 12 …
âOh my gosh, Daniel! That dress is so cute! Letâs buy it!â
âYour feet donât hurt, right? Itâs not too small? Not too big? Great! Then letâs buy this too!â
âOh my! This is crazy! Daniel, you look so pretty! I saw this in blue earlierâshould we try the blue one too? No, wait. The blue will look good on you too anyway. Letâs just get both!â
âEeeek! Look at this lace! Itâs so cute! Letâs get this bed! Oh, it looks like it comes with a matching kidsâ sofa. We have to buy that too! Donât they have a matching desk?â
âGasp! What is this bunny hat?! Itâs totally made for our Daniel! Letâs get it!â
âU-Um, excuse me!â
A small voice called out, urgent but quiet, and a little hand tugged at the hem of my skirt.
âHm? Whatâs wrong?â
I smiled and looked down at Daniel.
âI-Iâm scared!â
âWhat? Why? Of what? Of who?!â
I immediately hugged Daniel tightly and looked around in a panic. Had someone dangerous shown up? Or had a wild boar wandered into the village? Or⌠was someone glaring at us because I was being too loud?
âEverything feels scary.â
A muffled voice came from the small figure pressed against my chest.
Oh noâif I keep squeezing, the poor kid might suffocate!
I quickly pulled back and looked at Daniel. Just as he said, he was looking at me with a frightened expression.
âYou mean⌠the situation is scary?â
His small head nodded up and down vigorously.
âWhat about it is scary?â
âMy head feels like itâs spinning, and if I try something on, you buy it⌠And even if I just look at something out of curiosity, you want to buy it. So Iâm scared to look at anything.â
As he said this, Daniel squeezed his eyes shut.
It seems I got way too carried away. But what can I do? Everything looks so good on him!
There were still things I wanted to buy, but seeing Daniel like this⌠it seemed best to call it a day.
âReally? Then should we go back home for now?â
* * *
âLetâs see~â
Back in the countessâs study, I went through my checkbook, organizing what we bought today and how much we spent. Honestly, it wasnât about the moneyâI just wanted to make sure we didnât miss anything.
âAh! Curtains! We need to change the curtains too. Dark burgundy blackout curtains in a childâs room? Thatâs ridiculous.â
I quickly added curtains to my shopping list and went back to reviewing everything thoroughly. Weâd gotten five dresses, two pairs of pajamas, and two pairs of shoes, but it still wasnât enough. Daniel had gotten tired today, so we had to cut things short, but weâd need another shopping trip soon.
âOh right. A nanny! That should be my priority.â
I marked the word nanny with an asterisk. If I told Madam Perede, she might just hire anyone, so it was best that I handle it myself.
âIâll ask my sister-in-law tomorrow.â
Her daughter Aisha is only a year younger than Daniel, so sheâd definitely know more about this. If Iâm lucky, she might even recommend someone good.
âNo, better to write a letter and have everyone gather at the house the day after tomorrow. I need to formally introduce Daniel. He should wear the blue dress we got todayâor wait, was the yellow one cuter? Sigh⌠What am I saying? Everything looks cute on him. Either way, everyone should come see our adorable Daniel.â
Originally, Iâd planned to stop by the house after shopping and introduce Daniel to everyone with Pomotz, but we had to head home early because Daniel got scared from my shopping frenzy.
Actually, maybe that was for the best. What if someone wasnât home and missed seeing how cute Daniel is? That would be a disaster.
World, listen up! Look at my daughterâsheâs this cute!!
* * *
âMy lady, dinner is ready.â
I lifted my head at the knock and voice. Between the pile of papers and receipts, I could just make out the clock hands.
7:15. A fairly late dinner time, at least compared to Pomotz.
âOkay.â
My neck and back were sore from hunching over so long. Thinking about Lord Winchester and Daniel waiting for me, I didnât waste any time stretching and headed straight to the dining room.
âHuh?â
The moment I reached the dining room, I let out a confused sound. While I had eaten lunch with Daniel outside, I had breakfast here, so I already knew the room was excessively large.
But I didnât expect only the two ends of the long tableâenough to seat twenty peopleâto be set. And not for three, but just two people.
âIs something wrong?â
Lord Winchester asked as I stood there, staring at the setup. Indeed, one of the two seats was clearly his. And the remaining oneâwas mine. There was no place set for Daniel.
âWhereâs Daniel?â
âItâs a childâs bedtime, isnât it?â
He asked me in return. Even for a child, 7 PM didnât feel like an appropriate bedtime for a six-year-old. Aisha, whoâs one year younger than Daniel, didnât go to bed until around 9. Or maybe Daniel just needs more sleep?
âUsually, thatâs not bedtime for kids his age.â
I tilted my head as I sat down. Now I was facing Lord Winchesterâprobably.
âIf only Lord Winchesterâs features were a little less defined, I wouldnât even know where his eyes, nose, and mouth were.â
He was so far away, I couldnât tell where he was looking or what expression he had. Fortunately, his sharp features were distinct enough that I could at least tell it was him sitting there.
âWell, they say daughters resemble their fathers. To have a daughter as pretty as Daniel, the father needs to be this handsome too.â
I silently convinced myself as I looked toward him. Though I couldnât see his expression, I noticed he picked up a utensil once I sat down, seemingly waiting for me. I followed his lead and lifted my spoon to start on the soup.
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This wasnât a silent game of freeze tag, yet the room was filled with silence and stillness. At least my tableware clinked slightly, but over thereâperhaps thanks to elite noble mannersâthere wasnât even a sound.
This dinner was the polar opposite of the ones at Pomotz, where weâd share stories, laugh, and chat. Instead, it reminded me more of meal times at the orphanage where I grew up.
No one was allowed to talk. Even playing around a little could get you dragged out and left to starve. It was that kind of suffocating silence and pressure.
âDinner is quite late today.â
I couldnât take it anymoreâmy past trauma bubbling upâso I broke the silence. I even raised my voice a little since we were so far apart. Judging by how Lord Winchesterâs hand paused, he mustâve heard me.
âIs that so?â
His low voice carried surprisingly well, maybe because he had good projection or simply because no one else was around.
âIf dinnerâs too late, you donât need to wait for me. Please feel free to eat earlier.â
âOh, I didnât mean it like that.â
I quickly responded. Breakfast might be okay alone, but eating dinner by candlelight in a room this bigâno matter how fancy the foodâjust felt pitiful.
âWhat time do you wake up?â
âI always wake at 5:30.â
âThatâs quite early. Is it for morning training?â
âYou neednât feel pressured. Please wake as you like.â
âThatâs not what I meantâŚâ
No matter what I said, his responses gave no room for conversation. It was hard to keep talking.
âDoes he not want to talk?â
Was I bothering him by trying to start a conversation? I looked over at him again.
âI canât tell from here!â
No matter how sharp his features were, I still couldnât make out his expression from this distance. So I didnât know if he was annoyed, in a bad mood, or just naturally curt.
âUm, Lord Winchester?â
He lifted his head and looked at me. I think. I couldnât really see, but he moved.
âIf itâs not rude⌠may I come sit closer?â
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The usually quick-to-respond Lord Winchester said nothing.
Did he not hear me?
And⌠he looked frozen. At least, I think he did. It was hard to tell from this distance.






