#Episode 3
It was the moment he took off his mask and revealed his face.
âHuh?â
Jet-black hair as deep as the night, a sharp, high-bridged nose, skin as pale and delicate as the first snow.
âI already knew, but still.â
He roughly swept back the bangs falling over his forehead, and his reddish-brown eyes gleamed sharply.
âBreathtakingly handsome.â
No, wait a second.
Why do I know this face?
And right then, a chill ran down my spine.
âOh, dear god.â
I knew this gaze all too well.
How did I not realize it until now?
This man is Jeralach Cygnus!
Leoniâs lover, the man who gives everything for her.
The cold, cruel man who hangs me at the gallows for her peace.
The very man I kept dodging and avoiding just to survive.
The male lead of Tumultuous Leoni!
âWow, brain, you on vacation or what?â
Yes, you stopped working ever since you drowned yourself in wine.
Honestly, it wasnât just the drinkingâitâs also because Iâd never seen him this close, face-to-face.
In my past nineteen lives, the only time I saw the Grand Duke was from the execution platform, resigned to my fate.
Even then, I remember thinking how pathetic I was, distracted by that deathly beautiful face.
âNo, seriously. Why is Duke Cygnus here? Has he met Leoni yet?â
My mind was a whirlwind, but my lips wouldnât utter a single word.
As if someone had poured wax over my head and sealed it.
âYou were chattering like a parrot, and now suddenly silent?â
Jeralach tilted his head and asked me.
But now was not the time to respond to that.
âP-please forgive the rudeness Iâve shown until now, Your Grace.â
Not trying to cosplay a proper lady here.
Itâs just that Iâve lived enough lives to know how temperamental he can be, so Iâm treading carefully.
At that, Jeralach tilted his head again.
âThis is our first meeting, and yet you know me?â
âAh, wellâŚâ
Oh, right.
The Grand Duke and I had never properly met.
Of course he doesnât know me.
What do I say now? How do I explain this?
âThereâs no one in MĂźtten who wouldnât recognize Your Grace.â
It was a vague excuse, even I knew that.
In truth, Jeralach had lived with a cousin for some reason, and only returned to MĂźtten after his father passed, to claim his title.
âTh-think of it as the parrotâs information network.â
I added with a sheepish grin, and he let out a soft chuckle.
He laughed.
Wow. Thank you for not digging deeper.
Taking advantage of the softened atmosphere, I raised my hand timidly, like a student with a question in the teacherâs office.
I was already in âsummoned-to-the-officeâ posture.
âCan I ask you something?â
âGo ahead.â
I swallowed dryly and steadied my breath.
When I opened my mouth again, Jeralach leaned in slightly.
As if expecting something amusing.
This man looked like he was watching a monkey in a zoo.
âWhy are you here?â
Excuse me, Your Grace. This is not where youâre supposed to be.
When Leoni left the ballroom, you were supposed to be walking in the garden.
And you were supposed to fall in love with her! So why are you here?!
âWhat?â
âI mean, I was just wondering why you’re here.â
Jeralach slowly blinked those large, deep eyes.
âIs it strange that Iâm in my own home?â
ââŚâŚ.â
âAnd yet you being in my home isnât strange?â
This man really knows how to deliver passive-aggressive burns under the guise of politeness.
And yes, Iâm very sorry.
But youâre supposed to meet Leoni today, and Iâm worried things are getting off track.
If he doesnât meet Leoni today, what happens to the story?
Then it hit meâsomeone else Iâd forgotten.
âWait, whereâs my fiancĂŠ?â
While Leoni is outside the ballroom falling for the male lead, I was supposed to meet my own fiancĂŠ, Nathan, inside.
Nathan, who praised me like an angel, only to propose to Leoni in the end.
I glanced at Jeralach. But asking him where Nathan is? That didnât sound like a great idea, so I kept my mouth shut.
Yeah, forget him.
Thereâs something more important right now.
âIâm sorry. I think I made a really big mistake. So, actuallyâŚâ
I donât care what happens to me, but I donât want Leoniâs life to unravel.
Sheâs a kind, delicate woman who deserves to meet the male lead.
She did nothing wrong.
If only I hadnât caused this pointless fuss tonight, she would have met the man sheâs meant to love.
Thinking of Leoniâs gentle smile made a wave of sorrow crash over me.
âWhat time is it? Is it still night?â
âWhy do you ask?â
âBecause thereâs someone you absolutely have to meet tonight.â
âWhat?â
âI know it sounds strange. But thereâs someone you must meet tonight.â
Ugh, how can I phrase this so it sounds a bit more believable?
Iâll live my life however, so please, just go fall in love and live happily with her.
I donât want to destroy the original story.
The dark-haired duke belongs with the golden-haired beauty, after all.
âYou really areâŚâ
ââŚâŚ.â
âQuite the mystery.â
âHuh?â
âYou seem like someone scared enough to die over a drunken mistake, and yet you say things like that with no fear at all.â
The Grand Duke murmured lazily, and thenâ
âWhat if I said no?â
âhe placed his hand over my mouth.
But Iâm not the kind of woman to back down here.
What do you think Iâve been doing? Iâm a woman whoâs died nineteen times.
âArenât you curious who Iâm talking about?â
Modern theory says humans are creatures of curiosity, after all.
Iâd use his curiosity to get him out of this room.
âNo.â
ââŚâŚ.â
âNot curious.â
Guess modern theory doesnât work on this medieval heartthrob.
âHe shut that down fast. Better to retreat for now.â
Like heâs going to suddenly go running off to find Leoni just because I said so. Thatâd be ridiculous.
Slow is smooth, smooth is fast! Hoping that modern wisdom works a little bit here, I sighed deeply.
Then Jeralach, who had been staring at me for a while, smiled charmingly.
âI just want to stay here and play with you, Liverata Bernadette.â
I instinctively clutched the blanket tight.
Just like he saidâIâd been chattering like a parrot, but now I was struck dumb, unable to say a word.
His gaze was too intense. His eyes too suggestive. I could feel the alcohol flooding back through my veins.
âI want to hear more of your story.â
He had a sensual scent.
And his face up close was so perfect, it was impossible to describe.
âMy story?â
Jeralach still couldnât take his eyes off me, curiosity blazing.
But unfortunately, I didnât have much to tell him.
I was just a character created to highlight the female lead.
A woman full of jealousy and envy, twisted up in inferiority.
NoâI had to be that woman.
The only memories I could share with him were about all the times I ran from death, and the different ways I died.
What else could I say?
âIâm just the Countess of Almazâs dear friend⌠just the daughter of a plain old marquess.â
Thatâs when he frowned, as if something about my answer bothered him.
âThatâs a strange way to answer.â
ââŚâŚ.â
âWhen people talk about themselves, they donât usually start with their relationship to someone else.â
Fair. But Leoniâs a special case.
Still, somehow, his words stirred something deep inside me.
Iâd never been upset about not being the protagonist.
I just wanted a quiet, ordinary life.
âI honestly donât know who I am.â
It was impulsive.
But once it started, I couldnât stop.
âWhat kind of person I am, why Iâm living this way, whether thereâs a reason for it. Why Iâm even here. This place⌠itâs not where I belong.â
I shouldâve stopped there.
âEverythingâs just⌠confusing. And scary.â
In the end, I confessed my fear.
Was it because the mood demanded it?
Because of the alcohol?
Or was it his unwavering gaze, never leaving me?
The villainess frame had always choked me.
Even without doing anything wrong, the same ending repeated. Maybe thatâs why I acted out tonight.
And when I finally said I was scared, I had no choice but to face the anxiety Iâd tried to ignore.
Then, Jeralach slowly opened his mouth.
âWhat is it that troubles you so deeply?â
âI donât even know. Everything just frightens me.â
I couldnât say anything moreâbecause of what he did next.
He reached out his large, warm hand and wrapped it around my shoulder.
As I crumbled into his arms, that human warmth melted both my body and heart.
I knew I shouldnât stay like this, but I didnât want to leave.
Even though he said nothing, I felt his comfort.
How long weâd spent together, what he knew about meâit didnât matter.
In this dim and cozy room, there was only a frightened woman and a man who found her pitiful.
âI must be broken. This version of me, I mean.â
Everything around me felt surreal.
Like I was the only unnatural thing here.
I was never meant to be here in the first place.
I couldnât finish the thought, and instead looked up at Jeralach.
In those mysterious reddish-brown eyes, I saw a small girl, shrunken and afraid.
And for just a moment, I wished he would keep looking at me like that.
But noâI canât get entangled with this man.
Just as I was about to slip out of his arms and pretend I hadnât said anything rashâ
His grip on my shoulder tightened, holding me in place, and he whispered:
âI have this sudden urge to kiss those lips that just confessed their fear.â
ââŚâŚ.â
âNow, tell meâdoes that make me normal?â