Chapter 03
The day before Claudel was to leave for the Duchy of Valdemar,
Viscount dâAutriche came to see his daughter for the first time in a long while.
âFather.â
Claudel rose to her feet with a hopeful expression.
Even now, she still held a small bit of expectation in her heart.
That before she left for far away,
he might at least say one warm thing to her.
âŚThat was all she wanted.
âIf you do well this time, His Majesty says heâll grant our family a great reward.â
The Viscount said, face bright with excitement.
And just like that, the hope on Claudelâs face vanished, like a popped bubble.
It was the same old father.
And yetâwhy did she always find herself hoping again and again?
But the Viscount wasnât finished yet.
âSo listen, ClaudelâŚâ
His face came into view, blurred above Claudelâs blue eyes.
That expression gleaming with low, shameless excitement.
He suddenly grabbed her shoulders tightly.
âWhat about a suicide attempt?â
ââŚâŚâ
âŚWhat?
Claudel couldnât understand what he meant for a moment.
The Viscount continued in an eager voice:
âYou know why His Majesty arranged this marriage, right?â
âItâs⌠becauseâŚâ
âItâs to humiliate that arrogant Valdemar!â
There wasnât even a hint of concern for his daughter in his words.
There was only one thingâhis overwhelming desire to please the King.
Claudel stared at him, stunned.
She knew it too.
That to Duke Valdemar, she would be nothing more than a shameful wife.
But stillâŚ
âOf all people⌠I didnât want to hear this from my father.â
And at that moment, a truth she had been refusing to face finally struck her.
âI was never truly his daughter.â
She was a flower carefully raised to suit the Kingâs tastes.
A tool to revive the fallen House of dâAutriche.
To her father, that was Claudelâs only value.
âA newlywed bride who longs for another man⌠attempts suicide.â
âFather, thatâsâŚâ
âIâm a man, so I know this wellâ
how humiliating it is to marry a woman who loves another man!â
The Viscountâs hands gripped Claudelâs shoulders tightly.
âClaudel, make His Majesty happy. Then heâll surely reward our family greatly.â
And in that moment, when she met his eyes filled with nothing but desireâ
Claudel felt like everything had lost its meaning.
âAll right, Father,â she replied.
A few days later, in the brideâs waiting room at Valdemarâ
The maid her father had assigned to her handed Claudel a small silver dagger.
Claudel accepted it with a calm expression.
She didnât want to die.
But if she actually died⌠she didnât mind.
âIf I really stop breathing here and nowâŚâ
As she stared at the sharp, silver blade, Claudel suddenly wondered:
âWould Father or His Majesty feel even the slightest bit sorry for me?â
âŚOf course not.
With a cold, bitter smile, Claudel slashed her wrist without hesitation.
Drip, drip.
Thick drops of blood poured like rain, quickly soaking her pure white wedding dress in red.
To put it bluntlyâ
Claudelâs suicide attempt turned out to be very effective.
âWhat?! The bride tried to kill herself?!â
âShe mustâve loved His Majesty that much.â
âStill, to hate the Duke so much sheâd do that on their wedding dayâŚâ
The nobles all whispered among themselves.
And as expected, public opinion in Valdemar plummeted to its worst.
âThat harlot, becoming the Duchess of Valdemar?!â
âThereâs a limit to how much you can disgrace our name!â
Everyone raised their voices, insisting Claudel be kicked out immediately.
Butâ
Reinhardt, the person at the center of it all, did not get swept up in the outrage.
He simply gave the order to have Claudel treated properlyâŚ
âŚand then quietly waited for her to regain consciousness.
And soâat last.
When Claudel finally woke up,
she was met with a strange and unexpected sight.
âDuke ValdemarâŚ?â
Someone was looking down at Claudel lying in bed, their gaze filled with concern.
âAre you awake?â
That person was Reinhardt von Valdemarâ
Claudelâs third husband, who had every reason to hate her.
âY-Your Grace?!â
Claudel was shocked and hurried to sit up.
But pain immediately shot through her wrist as she pressed against the bed.
âUghâŚâ
A small groan escaped her lips before she could hold it back.
Startled, Reinhardt quickly tried to stop her.
âPlease, just lie down.â
But how could she possibly rest comfortably in front of him?
She had, after all, shamed him in front of the world.
ââŚâŚâ
Claudel quietly lowered her head and avoided his eyes.
She didnât have the courage to look at his face.
âClaudel.â
Reinhardt, who had been silently watching her, finally called her name in a calm voice.
âIt must be hard to marry me while your heart belongs to someone else. I understand.â
âŚHe understands?
âBut now that youâre the lady of House Valdemar,
even if itâs difficult, I hope youâll show our family a little respect.â
Claudelâs blue eyes widened a little.
âYour Grace⌠youâŚâ
She moved her dry lips without realizing it.
âDo you really see me as your wife?â
âOf course. Donât you?â
Reinhardt actually looked puzzled as he asked back.
âEven though we didnât have a formal wedding,
weâve already exchanged our vows in writing, havenât we?â
âThatâsâŚâ
Claudel started to say something, but bit her lower lip instead.
Here he was,
acknowledging her as his wife without hesitationâ
even though the whole world saw her as dirty.
He hadnât raised a hand to her, hadnât lost control in rage.
He simply corrected her behaviorâcalmly and gently.
A man like that⌠was truly the first she had ever met.
âWhy⌠arenât you angry with me?â
Claudel asked the question without even thinking.
âIâve⌠disgraced you in front of everyone.â
At that momentâ
For the first time, Reinhardtâs calm expression faltered slightly.
Startled, Claudel bit her lip so hard it began to bleed.
âWhat have I done now?â
The Duke had been kind enough not to get angry,
and yet sheâd gone and stirred things up again.
âWhat if he gets upset nowâŚ?â
After a brief silence, Reinhardt finally spoke in a calm voice.
âClaudel. I donât know much about you.â
ââŚâŚâ
âSo all I can do is guess why you acted that way.â
Claudel clenched the blanket tightly in her hands.
Because she loved the King⌠and went mad from that love,
sheâd tried to kill herself on the very day of a political wedding between two great houses.
He must be referring to that.
âHeâs going to scold me. I know it.â
Claudelâs face went pale.
Would he strike her?
Or maybe yell at her, call her a filthy woman?
Still⌠it was all her fault, so she had no right to complain.
But thenâ
His next words completely shattered her expectations.
âBut I also know that those guesses Iâm makingâŚ
are based only on my own biases, or the rumors that people spread.â
âŚWhat?
Claudel couldnât believe her ears.
Yet Reinhardt still wore that same calm, sincere expression.
âThatâs whyâif possible, Iâd like to get to know you slowly, from here on.
I donât want to misunderstand you.â
âYour GraceâŚâ
âI donât want to judge who you are just by my assumptions or the rumors around you.â
Reinhardt looked straight into Claudelâs eyes.
âThatâs why Iâm not angry with you.â
Claudel was left speechless.
There wasnât a trace of hatred.
No disgust, no scorn.
Only his beautiful, unwavering violet eyes.
âBut from now on⌠donât ever do something like this again.â
Reinhardt glanced toward Claudelâs injured wrist.
His gaze was strict, yet kindâlike someone gently scolding a child who had made a mistake.
âCan you promise me that?â
Claudel slowly nodded, dazed.
âYes⌠I will.â
âGood,â
Reinhardt said with a soft smile.
It was a clear, refreshing smile, like that of a pure-hearted boyâuntouched by any shadow.
Seeing it, Claudel asked without thinking:
âWhy⌠are you being so kind to me?â
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