Chapter 3
The nurse who came when I pressed the call button wasnāt Ms. Mochizuki, but someone Iād never seen before. When I told her, āI heard a strange voice,ā she gave me a pitying look for some reason.
After that, I desperately pleaded with her to remove the tubes and diaper attached to my precious body, but she said they couldnāt be taken off without the doctorās permission. She promised me sheād tell my attending physicianāthe thin-faced doctorāonce morning came, but then told me, āJust sleep for now,ā which left me shocked.
That morning, the doctor came around for his rounds and actually granted my request from the night before. Strangely, though, he also said, āIām not a specialist in that area, so if something happens, Iāll write you a referral letter.ā I had no idea what he was talking about.
I was also told that starting today, Iād be given meals. The first would be rice gruel, but since I hadnāt eaten solid food in days, I was starving.
I just wanted to eat something soonā¦
By the end of the morning, all the equipment except for one IV drip had been removed. Rehab was supposed to begin in the afternoon.
The first step, apparently, was light walking practice. I could already make it to the roomās toilet just fine, so walking didnāt seem like a problem.
What concerned me more was that my body seemed⦠different. More solid, even. When I flexed my arm slightly, a bicep bulged up, and my chest felt broader. Even my abs looked faintly defined.
āDid I build muscle from all that bike riding?ā
When I first moved here, I rode my bike all over the place, trying to be alone. Maybe that helped? No⦠muscle doesnāt just appear that quickly. Must be my imagination.
Still, this white hair really stands out. Iāll have to dye it right after Iām dischargedā¦
When I brushed aside my slightly long bangs in front of the mirror, I noticed a tree-branch-shaped scar on the edge of my forehead, too.
āGreat⦠if I donāt keep my hair long, itāll really show.ā
It put me in a terrible mood, but I decided to remind myself that just being alive was better than nothing.
āāā
In the evening, Aunt Akane came to visit me.
āKen-chan, the doctor told me youāre recovering well. If all goes smoothly, you could be discharged the day after tomorrow.ā
It seemed she had spoken with my doctor on her way to my room.
āYou donāt need to come visit me every day, Aunt Akane. You must be tired from work. Plus, you still need to make dinner.ā
āItās fine. Chiho helps with dinner, and my husband picks up Kaho from preschool.ā
Aunt Akane works at City Hall. Her husband, Yukio, is a teacher at a special needs schoolāgentle and calm, the kind of adult man you can respect. Their daughters, Chiho (the elder) and Kaho (the younger), are my cousins. Chiho is the same age as me, a first-year high schooler, though weāve never spoken at school. Little Kaho is three and goes to preschool.
The Yuzuki household is actually my motherās family home. Since it was just my mom and Aunt Akane as siblings, Yukio married into the family. Sadly, my grandparents passed away five years ago.
The Yuzukis are an ideal family, full of warmth and care for each other. I, the outsider, would only disrupt that harmony. Thatās why I live alone in my late grandparentsā old 60-year-old single-story house.
That home faces a garden on the south side, beyond which lies farmland. Past the fields stands the new house where Aunt Akane and her family live.
āIām surprised, though. I didnāt think Chi-chan could cook.ā
āHehe, I know what you mean. She used to run around outside and come home covered in dirt, but after Kaho was born, she grew more responsible. She says she wants to be a big sister Kaho can look up to.ā
āReally? Huhā¦ā
ChihoāChi-chanāand I used to play together when we were little. During summer break, her friend Mii-chan often joined us, and the three of us would go on little adventures. Those are good memories. But as we grew older, Chi-chan clung more to my sister Rinne, since she admired her. Because of that, I doubt Chi-chan thinks highly of me, the familyās black sheep.
āKen-chan, you should just live with us. Thereās no need to hold back.ā
āIām not holding back. I just feel more at ease being on my own. Honestly, Iām the one who should be apologizing for staying in Grandpaās house, which was supposed to be demolished.ā
āWe donāt mind you living there, but that house is getting pretty run down.ā
āItās fine. Itās still livable.ā
Unlike my proud and cold mother, Aunt Akane has a soft, carefree personality, and sheās always kind to me.
āAnd wow, your hair really did turn completely white. Youāre too young for āromance gray,ā but it actually suits you.ā
She wasnāt shocked by my hair at all. My mother, on the other hand, would have snapped, āIt looks disgraceful. Dye it immediately.ā
āBy the way, your sister called.ā
āā¦I see.ā
So my mother had contacted them. The air in the room suddenly grew heavy. Since I came here, I hadnāt seen my parents or sister. Honestly, I preferred it that way. I had no desire to see them.
āShe said sheās worried about you.ā
I couldnāt respond. I knew Aunt Akane was just being considerate. Thereās no way my sister actually worried about meāthe family nuisance. If she had, she would have come while I was on the verge of death in the hospital. But she hadnāt.
Thinking about that left a sour taste in my mouth⦠and a wave of drowsiness washed over me.
Since waking up, Iād been hit with sudden bouts of sleepiness. Maybe I wasnāt fully recovered yet.
āSorry, Aunt Akane, Iām really sleepy. Iām going to rest for a bit.ā
āO-okay. Rest well, then.ā
Looking a little lonely, she said, āIāll come again tomorrow,ā before leaving the room.
āāā
After that, the sudden drowsiness kept hitting me, and my discharge was postponed by a day. The doctor said there were no abnormalities in my tests and suggested it might be psychological.
On the day I was finally discharged, Aunt Akane came to pick me up. She invited me to celebrate with the Yuzuki family, but I politely declined.
Her face looked so sad, but I just couldnāt step into that bright household. Still, she insisted I take the food she had prepared for the celebration. Since I didnāt feel like cooking for myself, I gratefully accepted it.
āHaah⦠school starts tomorrowā¦ā
Golden Week was already over. The thought of returning to that prison-like daily life was suffocating.
Still, I knew I had to graduate. My parents said, āYouāll only get tuition support if you graduate with good grades.ā Studying itself wasnāt hard for me, but of course, I resented their conditions. Even so, for now, it was better to play along and use them until I could become independent.
Rightāmy hair. I needed to dye it.
On the way home from the hospital today, Iād stopped at a drugstore to buy dye. Following the instructions, I stripped down to my waist and applied it to my hair. In the mirror, the tree-branch-like scar on my chest stood out clearly.
āHah⦠I look like some cringy chuunibyou cosplayer.ā
My reflection was painful to look at. But more than that, my clearly changed physique bothered me.
Even though Iād hardly exercised before, my body was toned, with well-defined muscle. The abs werenāt an illusion.
āWhatās going on with meā¦?ā
Iād never heard of lightning strikes developing muscles, and when I checked online, no such cases existed.
Beep⦠beepā¦
The alarm Iād set went off. It was time to wash out the dye.
I rinsed it off in the shower and dried my hair lightly with a towel.
āā¦What!?ā
Staring at the mirror, I was dumbfounded. Despite following the instructions, my hair hadnāt dyed black at all.
āDid I mess it up? Or is this a defective product?ā
Either way, Iād have to redo it. Otherwise, Iād show up at school tomorrow with white hairāsomething I absolutely had to avoid.
It was 7 p.m., and the stores were still open. So I hopped on my bike and rode off to buy more dye at the drugstore.






