chapter 01âŠ
I got engaged to the person I had secretly loved for five years.
Isnât that something to celebrate? Well⊠maybe.
When Tislin heard the news of her engagement from her parents, she burst into tears.
âI think youâre the strange one.â
Sierra Fontaineer said that firmly. She was sitting crumpled in one corner of the dorm lounge sofa, holding a large mug with both hands, staring blankly into the air. She looked at Tislin as if she were crazy.
Tislin barely listened.
âHow can they just decide something like this without even asking me? They could have asked at least once!â
âI get that you might feel upset, but is it really something to cry that much about? Most engagements are like that.â
That was true. How often does the person involved actually get a say in their own engagement? Adults usually weigh everything carefully and decide for them.
And if, after all that consideration, the groom chosen is someone like him, she should be bowing in gratitude to her parentsânot crying.
âObjectively speaking, thereâs nothing lacking about him. Itâs not like youâre in love with someone else.â
âThere is something like thatâŠâ
âDid you confess and get rejected?â
Sierra said it as a joke.
But Tislin didnât answer.
Sierraâs eyes sparkled. Just then, students started coming into the lounge one by one, as the last class of the day had ended. Sierra grabbed Tislinâs arm.
âWe canât talk here. Letâs go to your room.â
With dull eyes, Tislin let herself be dragged along like a loose piece of paper.
âTislin, are you sick?â
A classmate who had just entered the lounge suddenly asked.
âYou look terrible. Your eyes are really swollen.â
âShe ate a late-night snack last night.â
Sierra cut in quickly and pulled Tislin away. The classmate tilted her head in confusion at the sight of Tislin being dragged off, but when her friends called her, she ran over to them.
By the time the sofas were full of students chatting idly, the sound of hard military boots stepped into the lounge.
It was a heavy, unfamiliar sound rarely heard in the Administration Department lounge. Students who had been focused on chessboards, newspapers, and thick books slowly looked up.
âOh, Senior Ksanov?â
âDo we know each other?â
The tall young man tilted his head slightly.
The student who had spoken gasped when their eyes met his bright blue ones. Of course, it was a one-sided acquaintance.
The young man, wearing the perfectly fitted uniform of the Knight Department, was one of the most famous figures in the entire school. When upperclassmen told the wide-eyed freshmen his name, they gasped as well.
âIs that really Sir Ksanov? For real?â
âI told you. He looks exactly like he does in the newspaper.â
Damian Ksanov.
A disciple of the Grand Duke of Luxen, he was not someone who would normally still be attending school if it werenât for a royal order.
At sixteen, he had gone to the Great Parfanan War. After earning merit in pacifying southern Parfanan, he received the highest-class medal from the king. In fact, students outside the Knight Department saw him more often in newspapers than at school.
âIâm looking for Tislin Hermiz.â
He waved a letter held between his fingers. He looked around the lounge, but the person he was looking for was nowhere to be seen.
âUm, Tislin went up to her room.â
ââŠAlready?â
It was four in the afternoon. It wasnât even dinner time yet, and she had already gone back to the dorm?
Under everyoneâs curious gaze, the classmate twisted nervously.
âSh-she didnât seem to be feeling well. Her eyes were swollen.â
Oh right. Because of the late-night snack.
The excuse Sierra had given came to mind too late.
Damian Ksanov nodded slightly, his expression stiff.
âIf sheâs not here, thatâs fine.â
With that, he turned and left.
As the sound of his boots faded away, the students who had been silently watching suddenly exploded into chatter.
âWow, that was really Damian Ksanov.â
âIâve been at this school for three years, and itâs my first time seeing him in person. So he really does attend here.â
âIs he that rare? Doesnât he come often?â
âMy younger brotherâs in the Knight Department. Apparently, he hardly comes. Something about Royal Guard duties.â
âBut why is Sir Ksanov looking for Tislin? Itâs not like she has any connection to the Knight Department.â
The studentsâ eyes lit up at the fundamental question.
âDid anyone hear anything?â
âI donât know. She was going upstairs with Sierra earlier. Her eyes were swollen and she looked out of it.â
âAre they close?â
âMaybe itâs an errand from a professor?â
âWhat professor would send Damian Ksanov on an errand when there are so many other students?â
âHow would I know! Maybe a Knight Department professorâŠâ
There were only guesses.
But since lounge time was usually dullâjust chess and predictable debatesâthe students happily chewed over this new piece of gossip to pass the time.
* * *
âSomething feels ominous.â
Tislin leaned against her bedâs headboard and muttered.
She had lived in this dorm room for three years. It was spacious and well-furnished, meant for noble boys and girls. But today, it felt strangely empty and shabby. A chill ran through her body.
âHasnât the ominous thing already happened?â
Sierra, lying lazily on the sofa like laundry left to dry, nodded toward the letter from Count Hermiz lying open on Tislinâs desk and grinned. She wasnât wrong. What could be worse than this?
âI really didnât want this.â
âWhy? Did Sir Ksanov say heâd rather die than marry you?â
âIf only it were something like that. At least that would be straightforward.â
But Damian Ksanov wasnât the type to say such things. And the real situation was a bit more complicated.
As Tislin hesitated, Sierra asked the real question.
âBy the way, your family doesnât even live near the Grand Duchy of Luxen. How do you two know each other?â
âWellâŠâ
Tislin hesitated for a long time.
âEither tell me or donât. Decide now. If youâre not going to tell me, Iâll just comfort you and go to sleep.â
Tislin let out a deep sigh.
âSo, Damian and I⊠Itâs not like weâre anything special. JustâŠâ
It wasnât easy to explain.
Sierra clicked her tongue. âDamian,â she noticed. Not âSir Ksanov.â
The Cedassi-Manorca royal family supported this Siedel Royal Academy. Though large compared to other schools on the continent, the student societyâmostly nobles in their late teens and early twentiesâwas small and rumors spread quickly.
If there were a girl close enough to call Damian Ksanov by his first name, rumors would have spread long ago. Yet even Sierra, Tislinâs closest friend, had no idea.
The reason was simple.
No one had ever seen them together. Not even in shared classes with the Knight Department. They hadnât even greeted each other.
âShould I just explain everything? Itâs hard to sum up. Do you want to hear it?â
âWait. Iâll get popcorn.â
Tislin burst out laughing.
Sierra really did bring back a large bowl of popcorn from the dorm kitchen and sat on the sofa opposite the bed.
Then she casually dropped another bomb.
âTis. It looks like Sir Ksanov came looking for you earlier. I stopped by the lounge to share popcorn with Kisha and Irina, and everyone was talking about you and him. I barely escaped.â
So that was the ominous feeling.
They had almost run into each other.
âIn the middle of the lounge, in front of everyoneâwe almost talked about the engagement!â
Tislin buried her face between her knees and screamed silently.
âBut if he came all the way here looking for you, doesnât that mean your relationship isnât that bad?â
Sierra hugged the popcorn bowl, eyes sparkling.
Tislin hesitated over where to begin, then decided to start from the very beginning.
âOur first meeting.â
âWhen I was eight, and Damian was ten.â
âWow. Weâre going that far back? Is this going to finish today?â
âIâll try to keep it short.â
âTry.â
Actually, she decided to skip most of the earlier explanations and talk about the recent event insteadâthe real reason she had cried at the sudden engagement.
âAbout a month ago, I impulsively confessed to him. He rejected me, saying that if we broke up later, it would make things difficult with Adel. I was so embarrassed and upset that I told him Iâd never see him again and ran away. And then this letter arrived.â
ââŠHey. Start from the beginning. Whoâs Adel?â
So the story returned to the first meeting.
When Tislin was eight, and Damian was ten.
This is how it all began.






