Chapter 03
Jay had always believed he lived properly and without fault.
But after hearing Pdeaâs words today, he began to wonder if that was just his own arrogance and self-delusion.
If someone like Pdeaâwho had barely spoken with himâcould say such things, maybe others thought the same.
Even Elena, the woman he secretly loved.
âUghâŠâ
Jay groaned as he thought back on his behavior. The idea that Elena might have seen him as some kind of womanizer made his face burn.
I really hope Elena never found out
He sighed quietlyâjust as a familiar voice called out,
âJay!â
He flinched. He hadnât even realized someone was approaching, lost in his thoughts. And he knew exactly whose voice it was.
Straightening his clothes to look presentable, he put on an awkward smile.
âElena.â
She stopped in front of him, catching her breath. Normally, he would have admired even this little moment, but now it was hard to look her in the eyesâmemories of Pdea kept coming back.
âDid something happen with the Lady Duke?â
âNo?â
At the sudden mention of Pdea, Jay instinctively gave a quick denialâtoo quick. It sounded suspicious even to himself. He quickly added,
â…Ahem. Nothing happened. She just wanted to find the terrace, so I showed her the way.â
He swallowed nervously, watching her face. He worried she might ask, Why did you stay there with her? or Why did she ask you instead of someone else?
But Elena only gave him a bright smile.
âI see. I was worried something happened to you. A few people were saying you and the Lady Duke disappeared together.â
Relieved she didnât press further, Jay still twitched at the confirmation that rumors had already started. He had rushed away for nothingâsomeone must have seen them heading to the terrace.
âThereâs nothing between me and her.â
âHmm?â
Elena tilted her head, puzzled by him repeating himself. But she didnât think much of it.
âRight, the Lady Duke doesnât like anyone except me. I was just worried she might treat you like she treats me. But I guess I was worrying for nothing.â
Her cheerful voice held not even a hint of jealousy.
Jay didnât want her to misunderstand, but still⊠her reaction left him uneasy.
Other nobles were gossiping about him and Pdeaâyet Elena wasnât even a little bothered?
Is it selfish to want her to be jealous?
He almost asked if she wasnât worried for any reason besides that. But then another thought hit him hardâ
Wait⊠does she actually think my behavior is questionable?
Was that why she so easily brushed it off?
He glanced at her, but she just kept smiling warmly.
âAnyway, Jay! Letâs go to Claire now. I told him to wait until I brought you.â
She grabbed his hand suddenly. Jay looked down at their joined handsâher gentle, firm grip strangely reassured him.
âAlright. Letâs go.â
With his unease fading, he smiled and let her lead him.
Even if she did see him the same way Pdea did, it didnât matter right now. She was holding his hand so openly.
If I keep trying, Elena will look at me the way I want.
He believed he still had a chance.
* * *
Several days passed after the Imperial Palace ball.
That night, Jay had danced with Elena just like Pdea had told him to. But he couldnât fully enjoy itâbecause he saw Pdea watching from afar.
He couldnât make out her expression, but her solitary figure stuck in his mind.
Maybe it was because he felt a strange kinship with herâboth of them loved someone who didnât return their feelings.
He remembered all the times he had stood off to the side, watching Elena dance with his friend Claire.
Still, he couldnât approve of her ways. Loving someone didnât mean you could do anything to claim them.
âAre you thinking about Claire too?â
ââŠHuh?â
Pulled from his thoughts, Jay looked up to see Elena leaning over the table toward him.
âYouâve been spacing out. I thought maybe you were missing Claire.â
Jay made a small sound, realizing heâd been distracted during their date.
He was lucky to have this one-on-one timeânormally, Claire would be with them. But today, Claire was away.
âYeah, I do miss him a little. Next time, letâs bring him along.â
He agreed easily, even though Claire wasnât actually on his mind. He couldnât exactly tell her heâd been thinking about Pdea.
Elena smiled brightly, clearly pleased.
âI knew it. I love seeing how close you two are.â
Her happy expression made Jay smile as well. He and Claire had even rented out this café for the whole day so she could enjoy it.
But why isnât the dessert we ordered here yet?
While talking, he glanced around impatiently. He wanted to give her something sweet to make her even happier.
âSorry, but weâre closed today. Please come back another time.â
Looking toward the entrance, Jay saw three staff members blocking the doorway. Someone was trying to come in despite being told the café was reserved.
Frowning, Jay guessed the intruder was a stubborn noble.
âElena, Iâll justââ
âOh, um, you canât come in hereâ!â
Before he could finish, he heard the sound of footsteps and the staffâs flustered protests. Whoever it was had already entered.
Jay still didnât think much of itâhe figured they could just offer the person some dessert and send them away quietly.
But when he saw who it was, he shot up from his seat, the chair scraping loudly against the floor.
âMy ladyâŠ?â
The woman in the wide-brimmed hat slowly lifted it, revealing her face.
ââŠ.â
It was the cold-eyed Lady DukeâPdea.
Jay quickly strode over to block her view of Elena. Standing in front of her, he said politely,
âGood day, my lady. Itâs been a while since the ball.â
ââŠ.â
Pdeaâs vision was suddenly filled with Jayâs broad chest. She blinked, startled by the closeness, even if she was happy to see him.
Tilting her head up slowly, she smirked.
âDid you miss me that much? Coming this close to greet me?â
She glanced down at the small space between them, confirming it wasnât her imagination, and her smile curved slyly.
âI didnât know you liked me this much.â
Chapter 4
Jay blinked, stunned. He hadnât expected this kind of reaction from Pdea at all.
He thought blocking the Lady Dukeâs path might earn him a slapâor at least a scolding about daring to stand in her way.
But instead, what came back was a comment about how she hadnât realized he liked her so much.
It felt strangely familiarâlike when sheâd casually asked him what names would be good for their future children.
Feeling his ears heat up, Jay fidgeted with them and tried to change the subject.
â…Ahem, if youâre looking for Claire, heâs not here. His schedule was busy today.â
He

