Chapter 43
âI Have No Intention of Divorcing!â
Cedarâs eyes widened at my retort.
For a moment, as if bewildered, his lips twitched, then he ruffled the hair I had just hastily fixed.
âWhat kind of nonsense is this? Are you seriously trying to drive me crazy?â
âThatâs just how it sounds! If not that, then what reason would I have to urge you for a decision?â
âUrge? What urge? Iâve already told you my feelings clearly! I said I donât want a divorce! Logically, if thereâs urging, it should be urging you to decide to stay by my side, right?â
âWhy?â
âWhy what?â
âWhy do you want me to stay by your side? You could have a perfectly fine woman instead of me. One that wouldnât make Lady Briar feel uneasy.â
âIt has to be you.â
âSo why?â
ââŚ.â
Cedarâs silver-gray eyes flickered back and forth.
Perhaps he hadnât expected me to ask, because he hesitated for a moment and then answered uncharacteristically awkwardly:
âB-because I donât think I could find a wife better than you.â
So he was just planning to feed only grass to a good wife, huh? I crossed my arms and muttered irritably.
âAlways so angry.â
âIâm not angry. You just need to understand how much you can bewilder others. If the roles were reversed, youâd raise your voice too, right?â
âSo you could just contract with a clever, compliant woman again. Why maintain a marriage with a troublesome person?â
The more sharply I pressed, the redder Cedarâs face became.
His neck flushed scarlet as he spun around and shouted loudly:
âI-I donât know either! Anyway, my wife is only you! Got it?â
âPff.â
If youâve turned your back, at least walk away somewhere.
But he just turned his back and pretended not to notice. I looked at his firm, broad back and pouted.
âDoes he even know what heâs saying right now?â
âMy wife is only me.â Saying that so casuallyâit sounded almost like a love confession.
âIf it were anyone else, theyâd misinterpret it for sure.â
âMy wife⌠only me. How easy it is to misunderstand that.â
Does he always scatter such unwittingly seductive words? Tall, handsome, high-ranking men saying things like that would usually leave a favorable impression.
âBut not me. I know Cedar isnât interested in romance or love! And Iâm not particularly interested either!â
Still, donât scatter such words so thoughtlessly.
I murmured inwardly, wary that Cedar might start lecturing me if I spoke my mind. But, like a ghost, he suddenly turned to me.
âWhy are you glaring at me?â
Does he have eyes on his back too? How else would he know I was staring?
I pouted and mumbled:
âBecause I think youâre a very guilty person.â
âMe? Guilty of what?â
âYou donât need to know.â
Cedar tilted his head. Seeing him puzzled made me giggle silently.
âGuess itâs hard for him to guess my thoughts too.â
After a moment, Cedar suddenly grabbed my hand tightly. His hand was so large my own disappeared in it.
âSo⌠your answer?â
Startled, I quickly lowered my head, caught in the pleading, tender gaze.
âThis is exactly why such gestures cause misunderstandings!â
Why hold the hand of a grown lady like this? And why is it so warm?
Feeling awkward, I wriggled my hand in his. Then, in a serious tone, he promised:
âDonât worry about my mother. I will protect you, no matter what.â
I didnât have the courage to look at his earnest face. I deliberately pouted and replied in a sulky tone:
âYou came home late that day.â
âTh-that day! I was too engrossed in digging with a pickaxe! I admit that was my fault. I will never let my guard down, even in my own house. No, I will never leave your side. I swear it on my name.â
The way this big, lazy-looking man with a leopard-like expression seemed helpless at my words made me laugh.
As I giggled, my own feelings became clear, like seeing through crystal-clear water. I didnât particularly want to leave him, even if it meant breaking our contract marriage.
âYou donât need to swear so dramatically. I believe you.â
âSo that means you wonât divorce me?â
Cedarâs face brightened at my words. I shrugged.
âAfter all, the Swordmaster planted the herbs herself. I need to see how they grow. Iâll stay by your side until you no longer need a wife.â
Since I had answered, I could finally pull my hand away. I removed my hand from Cedarâs palm and slowly walked toward my room, saying:
âYouâre really impatient. You said youâd give me three days to think.â
âRight, Iâm impatient. Iâm the youngest in everything, after all.â
âNow that the discussion is over, Iâll rest.â
âSee you at meal time.â
Ugh⌠how much grass is he planning to pile on me this time?
I grabbed the stair railing and frowned. Cedar looked at me and snickered.
He usually wore a frown of reluctance or mild displeasure, so seeing this rare bright smile was unusual.
After greeting me, he turned toward the kitchen. I watched him go and sighed through my nose.
âI eat really slowly.â
Our meals always went like this. Cedar would finish and watch me silently, resting his chin on his hand.
I chewed carefully, sometimes counting each bite, sometimes pushing away some vegetablesâhe observed it all with meticulous eyes.
ââŚHeâs dangerous without even realizing it.â
I shook my head, my face flushing and heart pounding.
Of course, itâs just because there are too many stairs.
Diana discreetly followed Grisha, careful not to be noticed, and reported her findings.
âThe mage has settled at a hotel in the city.â
âDid you find the room number?â
âYes.â
Diana nodded with satisfaction. She had asked someone to find out which black-haired, blue-eyed mage had come to the academy.
âEven if they arenât from a noble family, being a mage is valuable. But who knows? Maybe they are from a surprisingly prestigious family.â
The mage was attractive and had a rare profession. Diana had already mentally earmarked Grisha as a potential spouse.
âIf they were poor, I wouldnât even look back. Judging from the hotel, theyâre not from a poor family.â
The hotelâs first floor had a cafĂŠ and bar frequented by nobles, making it easy to bump into them under the guise of coincidence.
âOnce I learn about their family, Iâll make contact immediately.â
Diana asked her informant more details:
âDid they go straight to their accommodation?â
âNo, they stopped by a rundown mansion near the Azure Dragon Knights before going to the hotel.â
âA rundown mansion?â
âYes. A two-story mansion with only five rooms. I heard itâs an annex of the Azure Dragon Knights.â
âWhy would a mage go there?â
It wasnât odd for a mage to go somewhere related to magic, but the Azure Dragon Knights had no connection. Diana frowned.
âThey met a man and a woman there.â
âA woman? What did she look like?â
âIt was too far to see clearly. She was so tiny she was completely hidden behind the mage. I wouldnât have noticed her if not for her voice.â
âTinyâŚâ Normally one would assume family or a lover, but Diana immediately thought of Grishaâs conversation:
[Has our sister awakened?]
Grisha replied curtly:
[I donât know. I want to know too.]
Though usually expressionless, Grishaâs face was twisted in pain when he said that.
Diana rested her chin on her hand and hummed.
âThat doesnât seem like a lie.â
A mage searching for their sister, going to the Azure Dragon Knights commanded by Cedar Grenite? And there was a tiny woman there? Could it all be a coincidence?
âStill, the academy mage who diagnosed that my sister could never awaken had no reason to lie, so that was probably true too.â
Despite unease, Diana still believed her sister couldnât have awakened. She commanded:
âKeep watching that mansion. Someone will come out eventually.â
Once she sees what the tiny woman looks like, the answer will reveal itself.
The day after Cedar and I agreed to maintain our contract marriage:
I had already used up all my conversation for three daysâ worth of social interactions, so I didnât want to meet any guests.
But someone came to the mansion whom I couldnât refuseâJacques, coming to receive treatment from Grisha.
âOur Grisha is really diligent.â
Since it was his first time coming to the capital in a while, he could have taken a rest and met me later.
He wanted to see the elf right away and asked me to arrange a meeting immediately. Feeling his frustration, I couldnât refuse.
âI canât delay someoneâs hope just because Iâm tired. Hmm.â
Still, I was tired.
I sluggishly went out to meet Jacques and Grisha, like limp seaweed.