Chapter 12
12. The First Night, Redone
The day after the wedding, His Majesty Aleksanteriāno, I should call him Alek now, since we are husband and wifeāwas taking a day off from his imperial duties.
I had no lessons for my role as empress that day, nor any urgent sewing work to do, so I intended to spend a quiet, leisurely holiday together with Alek.
As my maid helped me change clothes after returning to my room, she asked in a timid voice,
āHow are you feeling, Your Majesty?ā
āIām feeling perfectly well,ā I replied cheerfully.
Then I realized what she was actually askingāand my face turned red.
Yesterday had been our wedding day, and the night had been our first night.
Naturally, it would be assumed that Alek and I had done that sort of thing.
At the academy, in the lessons on physical education and womanhood, I had learned that such acts could place a strain on a womanās body. They even taught us that the first time might be painful. Because of that, men were instructed to be considerate of their partners afterward, and women were told to rest their bodies.
In other words, Alekās day off today had likely been taken so he could stay by my side in case I felt unwell after our first night.
And my day off, too, had been granted so I could recover.
Once I understood that, I was overwhelmed by embarrassment.
After all, I had fallen asleep before anything happened last night, so I was full of energy now. I wondered what the maid thought of that.
Another maid was probably in charge of changing the sheets in the imperial coupleās bedroomādid they share that kind of information among themselves?
Realizing that the Emperor and Empress had virtually no privacy at all, I thought Alek must have endured a very difficult life for years.
Now that I was Empress, I would need to get used to that too.
Alek said he liked me as I was, but for the people around us, my becoming Empress made everything different from when I was merely a candidate for his bride.
Breakfast, as relayed by the maids, was the same as usual.
Had I answered the maid earlier in a weary tone, they probably would have served something lighter for my supposedly ātired body.ā
After breakfast, I went out to the courtyard garden to check on the vegetable patch.
Since the wedding had kept me busy the previous day, I hadnāt tended to it. I pulled weeds, watered the plants, and removed some pests.
While I was picking off a caterpillar, Alek appeared in the courtyard and called out to me.
āYou really donāt mind insects, do you, Lacy?ā
āNo, I donāt. Iām wearing gloves, but I can touch them even without.ā
When I tended the garden, I wore gardening gloves borrowed from the palace gardener to protect my hands.
After disposing of the caterpillar, I removed my gloves, washed my hands, and reached toward Alek. His large hand enveloped mine warmly.
Not wanting to let go, I invited him to my room.
āWeāre leaving for our honeymoon the day after tomorrow, right? Will you be resting until then, Alek?ā
āYes. After working nonstop as Emperor for eleven years, I think I deserve a little rest.ā
āDo you have any hobbies, Alek?ā
āReading, I suppose.ā
I smiled. My own hobbies were sewing, embroidery, knitting, and caring for the garden. I also enjoyed making artificial flowers. Alek didnāt seem to have much time for such pastimes.
āI imagine Your Majesty never had much time for hobbies.ā
āThatās true. Iām afraid Iām not a very interesting man.ā
He looked down a little sadly, so I tried to cheer him up.
āDo you like riding horses?ā
āHorseback riding? I donāt dislike it, but Iām not fond of hunting in packs with other nobles.ā
For men, horseback riding usually meant hunting outings.
For me, it was simply a fun sport.
āI havenāt ridden since coming to the Imperial Palace. Itās so large hereāsurely there are places one can ride within the grounds?ā
āAh, thatās right. I had a horse prepared for you, Lacy. I heard you liked riding during your academy days. Shall we take a ride together?ā
āYes! Iād love that!ā
At my bright response, Alek gave orders to the maids to prepare the horses.
He returned to his room to change, and I did the same, changing into a riding outfit with the help of my maid. Though women could ride in skirts, it was dangerous, so I preferred proper attire.
Alek, now dressed in his riding clothes, took my hand and escorted me to the palace entrance.
Two horses awaited us.
Mine was a bay mare with a white star-shaped mark on her nose. Alekās was a slightly larger gray.
āYour horse is a gentle one, Lacy. Her name is Stella.ā
āSheās adorable. Stella, pleased to meet you.ā
āMineās named Astor.ā
āNice to meet you, Astor.ā
After we each patted our horsesā noses, they seemed to respond happily.
I mounted Stella, and Alek climbed onto Astor.
The guards followed on horseback as Alek led the way.
We rode through the palace grounds and soon reached a forest. A cool breeze blew through the trees, carrying a fresh woody scentāit was refreshing.
When we dismounted, the guards quickly took the reins.
āI didnāt know there was a forest in the palace grounds.ā
āThe palace is vast. There are still many places you havenāt seen, Lacy.ā
āWill you take me to them someday?ā
āOf course.ā
As we talked, a maid brought folding chairs so we could sit.
Side by side, we were served tea poured from a flask into cups.
It was midsummer, and we had worked up a sweat riding, so I gratefully drank it. Alek sipped his too.
When we returned from our ride, it was already lunchtime.
After changing clothes, we went to the dining hall.
During the meal, Alek smiled mischievously.
āYou should look forward to dinner tonight.ā
āOh? Is there something special?ā
āYou didnāt get to eat anything at the wedding banquet yesterday, did you? I asked the kitchen to prepare the same dishes for tonight.ā
Even though heād seemed too busy greeting guests to notice, Alek had been watching me carefully.
I hadnāt eaten a thing during the reception, and heād noticed how regretful that had made me.
āItās embarrassing to admit, but the food looked so delicious.ā
āI didnāt eat much either. Letās treat tonight as our own private wedding party.ā
How thoughtful and kind Alek was, to notice such little things. I felt deeply grateful to him.
When I looked up, his eyes had turned a faint shade of crimson, like the color of a sunrise, as he smiled at me.
For a moment, I remembered young Garne.
Whenever he got excited, his cheeks would flush pink, easily visible against his fair skin.
Garne had been adorableābut Alek, the man heād grown into, was breathtakingly beautiful.
So handsome, so radiant, Iād once found it hard to even look straight at him. But as time went by, I grew used to it.
I wondered if Alek had also grown used to meāmy ordinary face, my once frail figure, my still-small chest and slim build. At least my hair had gained some luster since moving to the palace.
After lunch, I spent time sewing in my room, while Alek attended to some unavoidable official duties in his office.
We had tea separately and didnāt meet again until dinner.
As heād promised, dinner consisted of the same dishes from the wedding banquet:
meatball soup, steamed summer vegetables, sautƩed duck, quail pie, and peach tart for dessert.
The bread was freshly bakedācrisp outside, soft within, absolutely delicious.
I used torn pieces to wipe up the sauce and ate every bite.
āThat was wonderful. Thank you, Alek.ā
āIām glad you enjoyed it.ā
āDid you like it too?ā
āEverything tastes better when I eat with you, Lacy. It was delicious thanks to you.ā
Seeing him so satisfied, I relaxed completely.
After dinner, I rested a bit, then my maid helped me bathe.
She scrubbed me clean, applied fragrant oils to my skin and hair, brushed it smooth, dressed me in soft nightclothes, and sent me to the marital chamber.
Alek arrived soon after.
āLacy, I love you.ā
āAnd I love you too.ā
He cupped my cheek gently and kissed me.
At first the kiss was soft, fleetingābut soon it deepened, and I surrendered myself completely to his embrace.