Ā Chapter 32
āDonāt. Just wipe it here.ā
Anita dug into the breast pocket of her jacket, pulled out a handkerchief, and held it out to him. Without a word, he wiped his hands.
āWhy did you come all the way to Aberdeen?ā
Anita, not feeling much of an appetite, nibbled only at the corner of her sandwich as she asked. It was a question sheād been curious about for a long time, but never had the chance or the right moment to ask.
āMe?ā
āYeah. You originally said you were going to Leman, remember?ā
Leman was famous for many things, but especially as the school that produced Owellin Jeff. Even Anita, who was utterly ignorant about art, had heard his name. He was such a famous painter that it was said he donated most of his earnings back to his alma mater, Leman.
Rutger knew this because he occasionally visited exhibitions to see Jeffās works.
āAnd you were going to enroll in Leman too, werenāt you, Miss Rodel?ā
Judging from his teasing tone, it didnāt seem like he had any intention of giving her a straight answer.
Of course, if someone asked whether she had ever considered applying to Leman, the answer would be yes. There was even a time when sheād made a crazy plan to ācoincidentallyā attend the same school as him.
It was your fault, she wanted to say. But she managed to keep her mouth shut.
She really hadnāt expected this. When she sent in her application to Aberdeen, she never imagined this would happen. She thought knowing Rutger would be something that stayed in her hometown, never to be picked up again.
With a gloomy look, Anita kept gnawing at her sandwich.
Should she ask him why he was suddenly acting so friendly today?
Fiddling with the sandwich wrapper, Anita snuck a glance at him. Rutger sat there with a carefree expression, impossible to read. His hands were emptyāheād already finished his sandwich.
As a naturally light eater, Anita hadnāt even finished hers. She tore up the rest into small pieces and tossed them to the pigeons. They were so plump from being overfed by tourists that they waddled rather than walked.
āHave you thought about what youāll do after graduation?ā
Hmm⦠Anita had never really thought that far ahead. Four years was still a long time, and she figured she could decide what to do after graduation when the time came.
āNo. You?ā
His gaze, which had been aimed at the sky, brushed over her briefly before drifting away again.
āWouldnāt it be fun to wander around like a traveling theater troupe? I could paint portraits for passersby.ā
Right at that moment, a shabby-looking man walked past them, carrying a bag shaped like a paint canister. With practiced ease, he began setting up his things in a corner of the square.
āLike that?ā
āYeah. You canāt do anything except study, so youād just have to sit there next to me.ā
āā¦Do I have to live like that too?ā
Anita frowned as if she didnāt like the idea, but she wasnāt actually in a bad mood. It was stupid, but the fact that Rutger so casually spoke as if sheād be part of his future made her oddly pleased.
She knew all too well that everything he said was just empty talk. Vague promises, offhand commentsāshe shouldnāt fall for them.
Even if she was always included in the āfutureā he described, that didnāt make them lovers. Could there even be such a thing as sincerity in those promises?
Looking at the painter taking out his brushes and getting to work reminded her of her recent visit to Rutgerās studio. It still amazed her how he could create a likeness even more real than reality itself with just a few lines.
She wondered how that painting of his had turned out by now.
āThat timeāā
āHm?ā
āThe one you were painting.ā
Anita tried to sound as casual as possible. She didnāt want him to realize how much she had been thinking about that painting.
āOh. Curious?ā
āā¦Not really.ā
She immediately regretted asking. The way he spokeālike someone who had just remembered something heād completely forgottenāmade her feel embarrassed.
āIf youāre curious, come and see it.ā
āAlready finished?ā
Last time, heād told her to visit again to model for him, but it seemed like it was already done.
Maybe her thoughts were written all over her face, because Rutger suddenly gave an unexpected reply.
āItās not like I havenāt seen your face for a day or two. I can paint it without looking.ā
āā¦ā
Well, thirteen years was no short time. She could probably draw his face with her eyes closed too.
Of course, since Anita was hopelessly in unrequited love, she wasnāt exactly objective about whether that was normal.
She decided not to overthink it. Maybe the reason heād drawn her face more beautifully than in real life was his way of being considerate. Like how portrait artists often improved their clientsā looks for a fee.
The reason heād chosen her face in the first place was probably along the same linesāfamiliar and easy.
Thinking that way made her feel strangely at ease.
āActually, thereās something Iāve been meaning to ask you for a few days nowāā
Plop. Something cold landed on the crown of her head. Feeling uneasy, Anita raised a hand and touched her hair. It was damp.
The few drops of rain quickly turned into a heavy downpour. The painter sitting on the ground and the children playing ball had already vanished, as if theyād sensed it coming.
Shaaā
Rain poured down, sliding from her head to her neck, soaking into her clothes.
Plop.
Because of the heavy rain, she had her eyes narrowed to see, when suddenly something was placed over them, blocking her view entirely. She reached up and felt itāit seemed to be Rutgerās jacket.
Before she could shrug it off, his hand pressed down firmly on her head.
āWhat are youāā
āJust wear it.ā
āā¦I canāt see where Iām going.ā






