Chapter 30. Because I See Myself in You
The next day, the dark clouds began to thin, and the heavy rain pouring from the sky weakened. The imperial palace was calm, as if the ritual to summon the ancient god had never happened and the culprit who had been arrested was just a lie. At the center of the princessâs palace, as usualâ
âLady Taren?â
âYes.â
At the unexpected request for an audience, Olivia set down her documents, unable to hide her surprise. Anbuh Taren had safely returned home just yesterday.
âWeâll take care of both of them from now on.â
Along with the mother and daughter who had been kidnapped around the same time. The culprit who sought the god was now floundering in the deepest depths of the imperial dungeon. In the end, the incidentâwhere not even a single strand of the ancient godâs hair, let alone its existence, was confirmedâwas over. But wasnât it just a few hours since it had ended? If she was a victim, then obviouslyâŚ
Facing Anbuh Taren, Olivia asked naturally.
âShouldnât you be resting?â
âEveryone said that too, but itâs just a few scrapes. Actually, Your HighnessâŚâ
Anbuh trailed off and lowered her eyebrows. Understandably soâOlivia had stood under that pouring rain for quite a while. Though she was slightly more physically resilient than the average person, that didnât mean Olivia came out unscathed. Her face was visibly pale and heavy with fatigue, but she waved a hand lightly.
âThereâs not even a scratch. More importantly, Iâm glad youâre okay.â
âYes. Your Highness, if I may ask, that knightâŚâ
âHeâs fine too.â
Of course, it was hard to say a palm pierced by a dagger was “fine,” but for him, it was no worse than a scratch.
âOhâŚâ
At Oliviaâs curt reply, Anbuh opened her mouth again but shut it. Olivia didnât press her further. Though she claimed to be fine, it had only been hours since they survived a major ordeal. The fact that she brought up Cryer suggested she had been fully conscious during that time. As Olivia’s sluggish thoughts caught up to that realization, her blurred eyes narrowed. Donât tell meâshe came to say she fell for the knight who had rescued her so dramatically? Considering the previous grand tale of love she had told, it wasnât impossibleâŚ
But Olivia had already made it clear that nothing romantic was going on between her and Cryer. Watching Anbuh stare silently into her teacup, her pink crown visible, Olivia reached for her own. Clink. Just as she picked up her teacup, Olivia frowned. Her fingers felt heavy and dull, and her vision was irritatingly narrow. She clicked her tongue inwardly. There were no visible injuries, but her limbs were icy cold and the fever came in waves strong enough to make her dizzy even while seated. She knew better than anyone that she wasnât truly fine. Still, if she wasnât collapsing right this second, then there was work to do. She was someone who could determine life or death with a single signatureâOlivia knew that better than anyone.
She raised her cup to moisten her parched lips, scorched by her boiling fever, when Anbuh suddenly spoke.
âThat knight⌠Heâs connected to this incident somehow, isnât he?â
It was an utterly unexpected question. Olivia had assumed sheâd just gush about how Cryer looked like a prince out of a fairy tale. But being taken aback didnât mean she could gape and ask, âHow did you know?â Instead, Olivia tilted her head slightly, keeping a faint smile.
âOf course. Didnât he save you?â
At the flawless answer, Anbuh nodded vigorously.
âOf course. But Iâm talking about the âgod.ââ
As soon as Anbuh fell silent, a dark shadow fell over her.
âCryer!â
Her vision swirled, but Olivia had already grabbed Cryerâs arm. When she yanked him sharply toward her, the shadow looming over Anbuh slowly receded. Olivia made him sit beside her before she spoke.
âLady Taren, breathe.â
âAhâ! Hah, hahâŚâ
Only then did Anbuh realize she had stopped breathing. She let out ragged gasps as Olivia gripped Cryerâs arm tightly and said sternly to her:
âWhatever you think you noticed, keep it to yourself. Noâforget it.â
That day, at that time, Anbuh Taren saw something. Realized something. But that was all.
âForget it.â
Olivia met her eyes squarely, repeating herself. Yes. Anbuh had to forget. The “god” she spoke of might still be without a form, but the Cryer bound by that godâs chains would never tolerate her involvement. If Olivia hadnât caught him, Anbuh wouldnât have even realized she was dyingâ
But the words Anbuh spoke next were even more unexpected.
âI want to help.â
âWhat?â
Even as Cryerâs blood-red eyes threatened to tear her apart, Anbuh didnât flinch.
âHe saved me. I owe him my life, so I want to repay it.â
âIf you fulfill your duty as the next head of House Taren, thatâs more than enough.â
Despite Oliviaâs wall of refusal, Anbuh stood firm.
âPrecisely because Iâm Taren. I can be of real help, no matter what it is.â
Looking into Anbuhâs bright, unwavering eyes, Olivia realized she wasnât going to back down. In truth, even though Cryer was far from human in many ways, and Olivia had some knowledge of what was to come, breaking a contract with a god was impossibly hard. Anyone who could understand their situation and help⌠would have to be welcomed with open arms.
But the world didnât always run on logic and efficiency. The “god” was Cryerâs weaknessâhis reverse scale. If Anbuh hadnât mentioned the god and simply offered help, it would have been easier. But once the words were spoken, like spilled water, they couldnât be taken back.
Faced with Oliviaâs fierce resistance, Anbuh inhaled deeply. Her chin still trembled under Cryerâs gaze, but her resolve did not waver. Anbuh was pure-hearted and believed everyone had goodness in them. But she wasnât foolish. As the sole heir of House Taren, she was quick-witted and shrewd. And more than anythingâafter enduring such a grim and dangerous ordeal, she still extended her hand to those in need, purely out of goodwill.
On that stormy day, at that place, Anbuh had seenâor rather, sensed it. That something massive and indescribable pressed heavily on the shoulders of the princess and the knight of rumor. It was likely the “god” Cryer had spoken of.
âFor some unknown reason, Your Highness and your knight⌠are fighting against a god, arenât you?â
The people who saved her life were in troubleâfar beyond anything she could imagine. So Anbuh didnât need to think deeply. She didnât want to think deeply.
âI want to help.â
She repeated the same words with a wide smile. Just like always. So Olivia couldnât help but ask:
âDo you even understand what the consequences might be?â
She was kidnapped and marked as a sacrifice just for helping a man in trouble. If Cryer and Olivia hadnât arrived in timeâŚ
Anbuh tilted her head slightly and answered at once:
âI donât.â
Such a simple, cheerful, and confident response.
ââŚWhat?â
âEven so, I still want to help.â
Though her tone was light and her expression innocent, Anbuhâs will was like forged steel. Cryer, quietly watching her, slowly leaned toward Olivia and whispered in her ear:
âShe might actually be useful.â
Oliviaâs eyes widened, turning to him in shock. Her face clearly asked the question, even if she didnât speak it. Cryer answered with ease.
âYes. If she wants to help this much, no need to turn her away.â
âYou were just about to kill her for mentioning the god!â
âBut I didnât.â
Still holding his metaphorical leash, Olivia asked:
âWhy the sudden change of heart?â
ââŚI saw something.â
A clipped answer. Olivia pulled his arm and leaned close.
âWhat did you see? Let me see it too.â
Cryer didnât pull away. Instead, he leaned in even closer, until their breaths mingled, and whispered:
ââŚNo, I saw you in her.â
At the low murmur that brushed her ear, Olivia found herself rubbing her chest. It felt like she had swallowed a featherâticklish and odd. Tilting her head, she was interrupted by the voice she had momentarily forgotten.
âIf you two need to speak privately, shall I excuse myself?â
Naturally, Anbuh had witnessed the entire whispered exchange. Her wide eyes and sincere tone made it clear she genuinely meant to give them space. Olivia cleared her throat and waved a hand. Anbuh, half out of her seat, sat back down, and Olivia spoke something unnecessary.
âI told you beforeâweâre not involved romantically.â
A typical person might nod along at the princessâs claim while secretly thinking, Maybe not love, but something close to it. But Anbuh wasnât typical. She took peopleâs words at face value. Naturally, she nodded confidently at Oliviaâs declaration.
âYes!â
Her firm and enthusiastic response made Olivia pause for a moment. Did they really seem that unrelated�
A strange, indescribable emotion welled up in her chest, but it dissipated when she saw Anbuh rise gracefully.
âFor the sake of the Princess, IâAnbuh Tarenâwill do everything in my power.â
With a beaming smile, she added:
âPlease, just call me Anbuh!â
Watching her go, Olivia whispered to Cryer.
ââŚIn what way does she look like me?â