CHAPTER 45…………………………
He hid his true feelings, selfishly pursued his own gain, and instead of embracing those beneath him with generosity, he dismissed them.
As the heir to a declining family of scholars, the weight he bore must have been considerable.
I understand his circumstances. Thatās separate from how I feel.
Come to think of it, Aris the priestess must have been a necessary existence for himāto further solidify the countās position.
In the past, I believed he truly loved and cherished Aris, but looking at it now, too many things felt off. Still, when I considered Hubertās ambitions, it made a certain amount of sense.
If something happened to Aris, heād be in trouble too.
Watching the rain-invocation ritual proceed smoothly, I wrapped up my thoughts.
Today was the day of the rain ritual. Just as Princess Larat had hinted beforehand, the royal family hastened the ceremony, and each noble house that received the message also moved up their ritual schedules. I did the same.
Because preparations were rushed compared to previous years, the past few days had been hectic, but so far, everything was going smoothly.
On the altar, the ceremony was in full swing.
The apprentice priestsāstill in trainingādressed in blue from head to toe, shook out their wide sleeves as they finished their dance, and applause burst forth.
The remaining order of events went as follows.
After the apprentice priestsā dedicatory dance to Marta, the senior priests would lead a group prayer.
After that, a priest who had purified their body would offer a prayer to the heavens, and blessed rain would fall.
Generally, rain rituals followed this sequence.
I stood to one side of the rear seating, watching to make sure the ceremony proceeded without issue.
Riorsa had historically been rich in water.
The era in which I was born was said to have been the height of abundance, with noble storehouses overflowing with food.
In such times, rain rituals were closer to events meant to display the royal familyās authority and divine favor.
Though religious ceremonies were sacred by nature, such a solemn atmosphere as this was rare.
That was because the royal family wanted to calm the unsettled public sentiment caused by the drought.
The ceremony is going well.
I glanced at the king seated in the place of honor. His face, stiff with gravity when he first took his seat, had relaxed considerably. He seemed pleased that the ritual was proceeding without a hitch.
Thatās a relief.
Now all that remained was for Aris to do her part.
Still⦠Iāve got a bad feeling about this.
āHere you are.ā
āā¦!ā
I nearly screamed at the sudden voice.
I whipped my head around, eyes widening.
A man wearing a deeply pulled-down black robeālike those worn by monks of the templeāstood with his arms crossed, gazing at the altar where prayers were being offered.
Though his face was hidden, I immediately knew who it was.
That build is practically an ID.
āā¦Whatās with that outfit?ā
āDidnāt you say itād be uncomfortable for us to be together unless it was an official date? Thatās why, like at that suspicious cafĆ© beforeāā
āAh, I get it, I get it.ā
I raised a hand to stop him before he could say anything stranger.
Giovanni let out a small laugh.
āWhat?ā
āIt suits you, just as I expected.ā
āā¦?ā
āYou smell nice.ā
Only then did I remember the perfume Iād sprayed on without much thought that morning.
It was the perfume Giovanni had given me that day. Well, technically, it had been payment for a job.
Still, I liked it.
āI should stop by again sometime.ā
At his words, somethingāmy head or my heart, I couldnāt tellāfelt faintly ticklish.
It wasnāt as if heād said heād give me more perfume.
I changed the subject for no reason.
āRight now, Your Highness looks extremely suspicious.ā
The jaw visible beneath the robe twitched.
āWhy is that?ā
āYouāre really asking?ā
āI went through a lot of trouble to get something priests wear.ā
āā¦ā¦ā
At his genuinely puzzled tone, I was momentarily speechless.
āSure, itās something priests often wear, butā¦ā
So heās disguised himself as a priest?
His head tilted slightly toward me, as if listening closely.
āYour Highness should really consider your own physique.ā
I was waiting for a response, but since he didnāt answer, I muttered softly.
Even wearing the same clothes, Giovanni and the priests could never look the same. They didnāt even look similar.
āYour Highness, your body itself guarantees your status.ā
āMy body?ā
His unusually low voice seemed to scrape against my ears, making it hard to keep talking.
āā¦Youāre bigger than most people.ā
āI see.ā
āā¦ā¦ā
He fidgeted with the black fabric. For some reason, it felt like the eyes hidden beneath the robe were directed at me.
I awkwardly looked away.
āAre all desert people as big as you, Your Highness?ā
āOf course not. Those who are starving canāt grow very large.ā
āThat makes sense.ā
āAnd to survive, they have to move constantly.ā
It was a little surprising to hear such words from Giovanni, who seemed like he would have lived a life of leisure as a prince.
Despite his noble blood, he didnāt look down on the people. Instead, he spoke of their lives from the same eye level.
Thatās probably why I donāt resent being used by him.
It was because I belonged to that positionāthe starving people under the rule of someone like him.
Setting those thoughts aside, I asked,
āHow did you get here?ā
āI was curious what a kingdomās rain ritual would look like.ā
āA priest will offer a prayer later. Youāll get to see the rain fall again.ā
āDid you prepare all of this?ā
When I nodded, Giovanni stroked his chin. I glanced at him, slightly uneasy.
āWhy?ā
āYouāre good at this kind of thing too.ā
The praise was more ordinary than I expected.
āYouād be useful in the empire as well.ā
I tilted my head. Somehow, it sounded meaningful.
Wasnāt our unspoken deal that Iād help him in the kingdom, and heād help me in return from the empire?
āThatās a compliment, right?ā
āIāll be honest. When I leave, wonāt you come to the empire with me?ā
Giovanni said this while looking at the altar.
āYour abilities would be put to good use there.ā
I snorted without realizing it.
āYou mean my ability to steal things?ā
āAnd your hidden abilities as well.ā
āI havenāt shown you those yet.ā
āThat doesnāt matter.ā
āā¦ā¦ā
āYouāve never once failed to bring me what I wanted. Youāre sharp, quick-handed, and excellent at carrying out orders.ā
He seemed serious. When I didnāt reply, he tilted his head toward me.
āFor reference, Iām quite a merciful superior. Ask Kichef if you donāt believe me.ā
āAs if heād explain it kindly.ā
I smiled wryly, thinking of how Kichef still couldnāt hide his discomfort whenever he looked at me.
I hesitated briefly. Being personally recruited by a prince of the empire was certainly moving, but stillā
āThe desert seems too hot for me to live in.ā
āHm. Refusing already, when the future is uncertain?ā
āNo matter how good the pay is, Iām not interested in unstable jobs with no guaranteed future.ā
I was impressed by his willingness to respect my free will. But that was as far as it went.
Going to the empire would mean entrusting my fate entirely to him, and that was dangerous.
If I stayed in the kingdom, even if something happened to him, I could at least keep my life.
Besides, I still had things to do here.
I hadnāt even begun to grasp what Leoās words truly meant.
Giovanni said bluntly,
āMy adjutantās position wouldnāt be inferior to being a noblemanās daughter.ā
āAnd wouldnāt that also vanish into thin air if the superior falls?ā
āā¦ā¦ā
āAs Your Highnessās adjutant, Iād have to share your fate. I canāt stake my life just for better treatment.ā
āā¦Your tongue is quite sharp.ā
I burst into laughter at his displeased expression.
Then, suddenly, he muttered,
āBut isnāt the rain ritual already over?ā
āWhat?ā
I stopped laughing and turned toward the stage where the ceremony was being held. My face stiffened.
The platform where prayers should have been offered was emptyāeveryone was gone.
āDidnāt you say rain would fall?ā
āThe priest hasnāt offered the prayer yet.ā
By the order of events, this was when Aris should have appeared.
She liked being in the spotlight. Had her terrible case of protagonist syndrome flared up again?
āWe should wait a little longer.ā
But even as time passed, Aris didnāt appear.
āBring Lady Aris here, Jenny.ā
āI already sent someone.ā
Before long, the servant Jenny had dispatched returned. His confused expression sent a chill through me.
As expected, he reported in a fearful voice,
āLady Aris is nowhere to be found.ā
āHaā¦ā
I ran a hand through my hair.
I was so dumbfounded I couldnāt speak.
I knew something felt off.
Iād expected some kind of retaliation, thinking sheād felt humiliated at the princessās tea partyābut I never imagined sheād cause an incident this big.
āSeems thereās a problem.ā
Giovanni, who had been watching, said that, then added,
āIf you get fired from the countās household, I can take you in.ā
āFired? I donāt recall planning on that.ā
āThe king looks furious. You might be unemployed soon.ā
āPlease donāt inspire such irreverent thoughts in me, Your Highness.ā
People were beginning to murmur. Before the confusion grew, I gathered my skirts and walked toward the altar.
Then someone blocked my path. It was Lady Emerne.
āMadam, please step aside. Right now, Lady Arisāā
Smack!
Before I could finish speaking, a burning pain slashed across my cheek.
Lady Emerne exploded in suppressed fury.
āHow could you handle things so poorly?!ā
āā¦ā¦ā
āAris has disappeared. What were you doing, not protecting her?ā
āā¦ā¦ā
āI knew it from the moment you started talking about inviting some famous apprentice priestāsuch pointless nonsense. The most important thing is Arisās safety! I knew something like this would happen the moment you started acting recklessly, trusting that pitiful position of yours!ā
āā¦ā¦ā
āFind Aris immediately! Something terrible must have happened!ā
I lightly rubbed my cheek with my open palm. It burned and stung.
I probed the inside of my cheek with my tongue. The taste of blood suggested my teeth had cut it.
I turned my head slightly. Giovanni was still standing there. Because of the ridiculous outfit, I couldnāt see his expression, but his arms were no longer crossed.
Was he a little shocked?
Ah⦠how embarrassing.






