Chapter 10
Recollection
āCigarettes?ā
Beyond the reporters, there was silence.
Inside the Salenner Hotelās suite, Ludvig Rex spoke as he revealed the edge of a cigarette case from his jacket. Its ornate design suited him perfectly.
A rather fresh kind of mockery, Vivienne thought as she sat on the sofa opposite him, her gaze drifting to the low side table by her kneesāand the ashtray atop it. It seemed the image of her from a year ago, heavily sedated, had left quite an impression on him.
āNo, thank you. I have my own.ā
She rummaged through her clutch, avoiding his persistent stare.
āI donāt remember you enjoying things like that.ā
Ignoring him, Vivienne pulled out a plain, rough case.
āI learned.ā
Turning her head away, she awkwardly placed a pink cigarette between her lips. Click. The metallic snap of a lighter echoed, and she felt his gaze lower. When Ludvig flicked the roller and brought the flame closer, she leaned back.
āI said, I have my own.ā
Meeting his steady eyes, she retrieved a matchbox from her bag. Ludvig immediately guessed it had come from the kitchen and scoffed lightly, which she ignored.
She inhaled deeply. The trembling in her hand eased.
As she exhaled, smoke swallowed her fiancĆ©ās face.
For a brief moment, she almost forgot his presenceāuntil his voice pierced the haze faster than his silhouette.
āHerbs. And sedative-type medicinal plants.ā
At his low chuckle, Vivienne avoided the gaze she knew was coming.
āIs this it? What you smoked last time?ā
After the last time sheād met him at Salenner, the article sheād had Cynthia commission spread like wildfire and took over the capital.
Since that day, Ludvig Rex had been strangely quiet, appearing only as her fiancĆ© at events where his fatherāthe Speakerāwas present.
When business forced them to sit together, he neither looked at her nor spoke. Because neither side mentioned breaking off the engagement, the relationship had survived on a knifeās edge. Only when both families began discussing the long-scheduled engagement banquet did he start behaving like his old self again.
It was curious. Almost as if heād been holding back to avoid annulment. Perhaps he thought there was no engagement partner more convenient than her.
Herbal smoke slipped between Vivienneās lips. Her hand still trembled faintly. Being alone with him in an enclosed space made her feel suffocated.
The medicine was taking effectāher chest rose and fell sharply.
She slowly closed her eyes, then opened them and met his gaze head-on.
Her breathing steadied. Her mind cleared.
āWho taught you?ā he asked.
āā¦ā¦ā
āOh. Was it that agent?ā
Vivienne focused on smoking down the cigarette.
āDoesnāt seem like youāre in the mood for small talk.ā
He was right, so she didnāt bother answering.
She had sworn she wouldnāt smoke the last herbal cigarette heād given her. She meant to keep it as a souvenirāa trace of him, an object to remember that moment by.
She had even planned to ask Madison to speak to a friendly military doctor to obtain something similar. But when she met Madisonās eyes, she couldnāt bring herself to say it.
There had been days she was grateful for her positionāprotected within the mansionās barriers, spared from a life like Madisonās. And now she was considering bringing up herbal cigarettes.
It felt like exposing her lowest self. The fear struck suddenly. That one agent had led her to thoughts like thisāit shocked her.
How important had he become to me?
And how terrifying would it be to lose him?
Fear bred hesitation. She couldnāt allow that.
And yet, sheād carried that cigarette all this time, telling herself sheād only use it if things became unbearable. She thought she could endure it. Thought sheād grown numb to most things.
She hadnāt.
In the end, sheād reached for it.
āI wonāt be attending the engagement announcement banquet.ā
Vivienne lifted her head and faced reality.
The voice that came from the blond man was as arrogant as the way he lounged. Beneath his lazily lowered lashes, crimson eyes swept over her.
āBecause Carolina Russella told you not to?ā
Pain flared near her ribsāmemories as toxic as poison invaded her mind. Yet she remained composed. The sedatives were working.
āYou know well enough.ā
Ludvig filled a whiskey glass and took a drink.
āIāll tell the Marquis myself. Iāll say youāre busy with work.ā
The glass was placed beside the ashtray.
Vivienne watched the manāher fiancĆ©, an ally of others, a potential husbandārise without hesitation.
āThe front-page photo will be excellent. Iām sure His Excellency the Marquis of Mergoville will be pleased. He seems to enjoy campaigning with whatever the press is gossiping about these days.ā
If she wanted to possess that agent, she couldnāt keep trembling like this in front of Ludvig.
To draw the interest of the underworldās leader, she always had to be the center of attention. This moment was a critical turning point.
So, for the first time, Vivienne wondered: What does Ludvig Rex want from me?
He passed by her seat toward the door.
At that moment, Vivienne commanded, holding the nearly burned-out herbal cigaretteā
āSit.ā
Suppressing the wave of nausea from her own boldness, she listened to his footsteps approaching.
They stopped.
He knelt on one knee before her and looked up.
āā¦ā¦ā
His face was handsome enough to explain how he so easily lured countless women into his bed.
She could only see his lower face clearly, but even that was flawless. His crooked smile was insolent.
āVivienne.ā
He spoke her name more gently than ever, fixing her with a dominant gaze.
Then he rose slowly, gripping the antique chairās armrests and looming over her.
A large shadow fell over her.
āIf you call someone over, you should say something.ā
Instead of answering, Vivienne blew smoke straight into his face.
āSomeone?ā
āYes. Someone.ā
As the smoke cleared, she saw not anger, but a cold smile.
āIām the one indulging your little noble play.ā
āAnd whose fault is that?ā
Her eyes lowered slightly. Of course, he wasnāt the type to tolerate her insolence.
Even as she felt the chair tremble under his grip, she continued.
āIf Iām a woman sold off to you, then arenāt you the stud your father sold to my family?ā
A scoff appeared on his face. Vivienneās color nearly drained away.
But she didnāt stop.
āI remember hearing the Speaker wanted to make you a senator. You needed a title for that, so you allied with my family. You hated that, sold my title to the underworld instead, and now youāre playing at being the real thing while standing on equal footing with the eldest son.ā
āā¦ā¦ā
āAm I wrong? No matter how impressive you act, you still need a title. Which means weāre equals. Thatās exactly what I told your mistress tooāknow your place, and behave accordingly.ā
Her voice was as calm as when sheād entered the room.
āIf she took it out on you because of that, I apologize. She was fair, at least. She treated me the sameāhad her follower shove me down the stairs. I never expected that.ā
Vivienne met her fiancĆ©ās crimson eyes directly.
She spoke of nearly dying, her body bruised black and blue, as if recounting someone elseās story.
āThe Marquis and Marchioness donāt know. My injuries would be a loss to them. I know exactly what my assets are, so I never told anyone. But your mistress tried to sell my photos to the press and ruined everything. I deserve compensation.ā
She crushed the burned-out cigarette into his solid shoulder and extinguished it.
āAttend the engagement announcement banquet. In private settings, I wonāt care if you buy your mistress a villa or do whatever you want inside it.ā
Her now-free hand gently straightened his loosely tied tie.
āI know youāre good with calculationsāand that was something your father considered when choosing which card to play. So donāt do something youāll regret.ā
This time, she didnāt avert her gaze.
She organized her thoughts. He wanted three things from her.
Firstārespect.
She didnāt know why, but whenever the Marquisāher fatherādemeaned his lineage, Ludvig redirected that anger at her.
If she and her father were truly nothing to him, couldnāt he just laugh it off?
Thatās what she, a noble, thought.
But clearly, he wasnāt like that. So this time, she elevated him by acknowledging his sharp mind.
Secondāher title.
Whether he wanted to continue doing business with the underworld or pursue a senate seat, he needed her. If he maintained basic courtesy, she was willing to cooperate.
Since gaining the underworld bossās protection was her own goal, being involved in his business benefited her as well.
Thirdāfreedom in private relationships.
This suited her too. As long as he observed minimum decorum, she didnāt care what he did with his mistress. If the woman stayed satisfied and didnāt envy her, Vivienne wouldnāt get hurt again.
She wanted him to understand that equality wouldnāt disadvantage him.
Vivienne spoke again.
āThink about who will benefit you more in the long runāa ticket-selling actress pretending at nobility, or me, a hereditary noble of Daatro. Iām done talking. You may leave.ā
āā¦ā¦ā
They stared at each other for a long while.
A negotiation that had degenerated into a battle for dominance.
A clear line had been drawn.
āAh.ā
When Ludvig Rex finally smiled again, Vivienneās slender shoulders flinched.
Her arms were thin, fitting for someone who barely ate. So different from the curves accentuated by her dress.
āAlmost forgot.ā
He rummaged through his trouser pocket.
A luxurious box emerged clumsily along with a lighter and other odds and ends. Vivienne slowly lifted her gaze.
āWe need something to show at the engagement announcement banquet.ā
She stood to leave, but when she reached for the box, he stopped her.
āPut it on.ā
He grabbed her wrist firmly, then deliberately knelt and slipped a ring onto her fourth finger.
No doubt he was being spitefulāacting like the ideal fiancĆ© she most desired, just to remind her how easily she could lose it.
Vivienne walked out without reacting.
Under the hallway lights, the gemstone on the loose ring glittered on her finger.
At the line Vivienne had drawn, Ludvig drew anotherāplatinum brightāaround her finger.
A symbol of marriage by convention, but today, the two lines were unmistakably parallel.
Vivienne was satisfied enough.
Everything was going according to plan.
Perhaps sacrificing the cigarette had been a charm against misfortune.