Chapter – 49
Somehow, my heartās pounding.
Opening the lid of a lunchbox someone else made for me makes me more nervous than opening my own.
It was lunchtime, and while everyone else had scattered to eat their bento or bread wherever they liked, I came up to the rooftop alone.
Of course, there were still a few other students around.
Opening Kana-neeās handmade bento in a place like this is⦠still embarrassing.
Last time, there had been a heart drawn in the riceābut what would it be this time?
Knowing Kana-neeās personality, thereās absolutely no way thereād be nothing.
āMan⦠Iām kind of scared to open itā¦ā
I muttered that while staring down anxiously at the lunchbox.
There was no one right next to me, so it was completely just talking to myself.
āā¦But no oneās really watching, so it should be fine, right? Okay⦠here goes.ā
There was no point in hesitating forever.
I steeled myself and opened the lid.
āUgh⦠this isā¦ā
The moment I saw the contents, I froze in shock.
Last time it had been a heart, but this time, the rice had the word āLOVEā written across it.
Well, the side dishes were varied, nutritious, and clearly high quality.
But there was no doubt about itāthis was not a bento I could let other people see.
āKana-nee⦠this is⦠way too embarrassingā¦ā
My face burned bright red.
I was grateful she made me lunch, but there are things you should doāand things you shouldnāt.
Just like the previous one, this bento was something I absolutely couldnāt eat in the classroom.
I didnāt want to complain about something she went to the trouble of making, but couldnāt she make something more⦠normal?
Even Iām careful to make ordinary lunches for her.
Thank goodness Shin wasnāt nearby today.
If heād seen this, I donāt even want to imagine what heād say.
Before anyone else came over, I hurriedly started eating.
Honestly⦠maybe I should stop exchanging bentos altogether.
I really meant that.
By the time I got home as usual, it was around 9:30 p.m.
On days I have work, it always ends up this late.
When I opened the front door, Kana-nee was there, greeting me like always.
āWelcome home, Kaede. ā¦Dinnerās ready.ā
āYeah. Thanks.ā
I went inside, put my bag on the sofa, and carried the now-empty lunchbox to the kitchen.
Because of how our households are, Kana-nee is at my house even when my brother and I arenāt home.
Her parents both work, so her house is usually empty.
My parents said they couldnāt let her be lonely by herself, so they let her stay hereā¦
They even gave her a spare key.
Itās been that way since we were little, so to us, sheās practically family.
I guess thatās why I came to think of Kana-nee as an actual older sister.
I never expected her to suddenly start getting so close to me with romantic feelings, thoughā¦
She noticed the lunchbox right away and spoke up.
āSo? How was todayās bento?ā
āIt was really good. Butā¦ā
āBut? What is it?ā
Seeing my serious expression, she tilted her head thoughtfully.
Thereās no way she didnāt know what sheād done to that lunch, right?
A little irritation welled up as I looked at her.
āā¦Kana-nee.ā
āHm? What?ā
āDonāt you think todayās bento was kind of⦠too muchāā
āYeah. I put a lot of care into making it just for you, Kaede.ā
āI know, butā¦ā
When she says things like ājust for youā, it makes it hard to say anything.
Even though I want to tell her clearly to stop with the hearts and decorations, the words just wonāt come out.
Thatās my problem.
I canāt get mad when I should.
I always miss the timing.
She smiled brightly and asked,
āYou made mine with a lot of care too, right?ā
āOf course. If Iām going to make something, I want it to be good.ā
I shrugged.
āMm-hmm, I get that. āAnd mine was made with lots of love for you, Kaede, so I really gave it my all.ā
āI appreciate the thought, but⦠you didnāt have to go that far.ā
āNo. This is for you.ā
āFor meā¦? You mean that bento? It was seriously embarrassing.ā
Just seeing the word āLOVEā made me panic and look around.
She looked genuinely confused.
āWas it really that embarrassing? I didnāt think it was that bad.ā
āThatās not what I mean⦠Itās not about whether it was good or badā¦ā
āThen what was the problem? I made sure the side dishes were nutritionally balanced.ā
āYeah, I do that too when I cook, so that partās fine. Itās justāā
I looked away awkwardly.
āJust what?ā
āI donāt really like bentos with hearts or āLOVEā written on them. Thatās a bitā¦ā
āEhh? I was pretty proud of that one. You didnāt like it that much?ā
She pouted slightly.
āThe food itself was perfect. But eating it where everyone could see was⦠kind of embarrassing.ā
āHonestly, itād be perfect if I could just feed you myself.ā
āYou feeding me? Donāt joke around. What would my brother say?ā
āRyuichi-san has nothing to do with it. What matters is how you feel.ā
āHm⦠how I feel, huhā¦ā
That just makes it harder to answer.
āSo? Specifically, how would you feel about me feeding you?ā
āIāve never really thought about itā¦ā
āJust hypothetically is fine.ā
Prompted by her, I imagined it.
If Kana-nee did thatā¦
To be honest, I might be happy.
āNormally, I donāt think any guy would hate thatā¦ā
āRight? Thenāā
āBut if you did it in front of people, Iād be too embarrassed to show my face for a whileā¦ā
āThat embarrassing? Itās just feeding you, you know?ā
She looked at me in genuine confusion.
But no matter how she looks at me, no is still no.
āEven if itās normal for you, itās super embarrassing for me.ā
āI see⦠Embarrassing, huh. For me, itād be like a once-in-a-lifetime event. Something Iād really want to do.ā
āOh⦠I see.ā
I sat down at the table and picked up my chopsticks to eat dinner.
Then she suddenly brightened.
āOh! Then how about I feed you dinner instead?ā
āHuh? This?ā
āYeah! No oneās around right now, so it should be fine. What do you think?ā
āI appreciate it, but⦠Iāll pass.ā
āWhy?ā
āIf you do that, I wonāt be able to refuse whatever you ask for laterā¦ā
āEhh? You wonāt? I thought youād definitely bathe with me if I askedā¦ā
āYou always force your way in anyway.ā
I sighed.
She snatched the chopsticks from my hand, picked up some food, and held it toward me.
āCome on, Kaede. Say āahhāāā
āDo I really have to?ā
āYes. You need to listen to me properly. I am your older sister, after all.ā
āUgh⦠when you put it like that, I canāt argue.ā
Reluctantly, I ate the food she offered.
āā¦So? Is it good?ā
She asked with a strangely serious expression.
The taste itself was flawless.
āItās good.ā
I smiledāthough it was a bit stiff.
Even with no one around, this was still really embarrassing.
But it seemed she wasnāt done yet.
This time she picked up some rice and held it out.
āOkay. Say āahhāā¦ā
Ah⦠sheās going to make me go through with the whole thing.
If I refused now, sheād definitely sulk.
What should I do�
āā¦?ā
āHm? Whatās wrong?ā
She looked at me curiously.
āNo⦠itās nothing.ā
There was no point overthinking it, so I decided to go along with it.
Sheād probably barge into the bath later too.
Definitely.