Chapter 18
When he saw Ephelia, Regios felt good. Noâwhen he didnât see her, he felt irritated. It had always been that way, ever since the first time they met. But even as he felt happiness, another emotionâdisgust, revulsionârose within him. To love Ephelia because of fateâthat was something Regios could not accept.
Whenever he was with her, he felt both joy and self-loathing. That was why he left Ephelia on the balcony and returned alone to the banquet hall. He hated her existence for making him mistake this emotion for love.
âIâll tell His Majesty the Emperor that you were tired and wanted to rest alone later.â
He knew she said that out of concern for him. But the thought that she might be trying to get rid of him because she didnât want to see him made his mood worsen again.
âAre you sure thatâs all right?â
âYes.â
He didnât want to leave her behind. But her firm answer made him turn away and leave the balcony. The look of sadness on her face made him want to comfort her, to hold her gentlyâbut he resisted that urge. And so his demeanor grew even colder, even more distant.
He had left the balcony, but his mind was still there. What expression would Ephelia have now, left alone? Would she be sitting there quietly, looking dejected?
Even surrounded by people, Regiosâs nerves were tense, on edge.
It was an awful feeling. Fateâwhat a damnable word. Because of that word, he couldnât stop his heart from being drawn to her.
Perhaps because his attention was so fixed on Ephelia, he noticed that there was someone else beyond the curtains of the balcony doorâsomeone who was not her. He guessed immediately who it must be: his younger brother, Hailen, Epheliaâs childhood friend.
Ephelia didnât have any female friends close enough to chat with in such a secluded spot. And for a man and a woman to be alone on a balconyâthat suggested a special relationship. If it had been anyone other than Hailen, Ephelia would surely have screamed or come out in alarm.
â…Your Highness, why are youâhere?â
He had been so preoccupied that he hadnât heard someone speak to him until a moment later. Regios turned his indifferent gaze toward the speaker.
âLady Seluna.â
The young woman who approached him had caught his attention once before during a competition. She was Epheliaâs cousinâand her half-sister.
âI saw your match the other day. It was⌠amazing.â
He neither knew nor cared which match she was talking about.
âYour Highness?â
Selunaâs cheeks flushed red as she called out to him, but her voice didnât reach him.
Rationally, he knew there could be nothing inappropriate between Ephelia and Hailen. But the thought of his brother being alone with her in that same space gnawed at him. No matter that they were siblings and childhood friendsâit was intolerable.
This irritation wasnât his own; his reason knew that. It was the emotion imposed by fateâthe unbearable feeling of knowing that the person destined for you was with someone else, even your own brother.
Damn fate.
If he truly wanted to resist the pull of fate, he should have ignored itâlet them be together on that balcony, alone.
âPardon me for a moment, Lady Seluna.â
Yet even so, Regios couldnât suppress the impulse. Leaving Seluna behind, he strode toward the balcony. Just as he had suspected, two figures were there.
Before opening the door, he heard Epheliaâs soft laughter.
Donât laugh. Not when Iâm not there. You hardly smile at me anymore.
A flash of uncontrollable thought cut through his mind. He clenched his jaw, rapped on the glass, and opened the door. The gazes that met him were awkward, almost as if he were an unwelcome intruder.
Why must I be looked at like this? The sense of having interrupted a precious moment between them filled him with rage. And to think they had dared to meet like this without his permissionâit was absurd.
For an outsider, the Crown Prince secretly inviting his betrothed without her fiancĂŠâs knowledge might sound scandalous. But they were childhood friends, after allânothing unusual. Still, Regios couldnât let it go. He picked at that detail, as if trying to find fault.
That had been a month ago. Now, the week of his birthday banquet was drawing near.
âYour Highness.â
Regios had ordered that he was not to be disturbed, claiming he needed rest. Yet even after much time had passed, his mind was still tangled; he found no rest at all. When the door opened before he had lifted the order, his voice turned cold.
âI told you not to disturb me.â
âMy apologies, Your Highness. The Grand Dukeâs son has arrived.â
âMy brother? Show him in.â
Regios straightened from the sofa as the door opened, revealing the Grand Dukeâs handsome heir.
âWhy are you standing?â
âHow could I remain seated when my elder brother enters?â
âYou outrank me.â
The visitorâUnion, son of the Grand Duke and cousin to Regiosâwas older in age but lower in rank.
âStill, propriety matters. Please, have a seat.â
âAll right, all right.â
âWould you like some tea?â
âWill you be the one to pour it?â
âIf you wish.â
âAn honor indeed.â
Of course, it would be unthinkable for the Crown Prince to serve anyone tea. The attendants quickly brought in refreshments.
âSo, what brings you here, brother?â
âYour birthdayâs coming soon.â
âYes. And?â
âI wanted to ask what kind of gift youâd like.â
âYou came all the way here just for that? Iâm not a childâI donât fuss over presents.â
âI also wanted to see your face.â
Regios frowned slightly. How could his cousin say such honeyed words so easily?
âBy the way, whereâs your fiancĂŠe?â
âSheâll come during the celebration week.â
âWhy not invite her early? Youâll be too busy once the banquet starts.â
âThereâs no need.â
Though it wasnât a royal rule, it was customary to spend time with oneâs betrothed beforehand. Union sighed inwardly. He didnât want to meddle, but looking at his cousin reminded him of his younger self.
âTreat her well.â
âWhat do you mean by that?â
Regios knew perfectly well.
âSheâs your destined partner, isnât she?â
Regios rubbed his temples, weary.
âIs destiny something absolute?â
âCompletely. You canât defy it.â
You shouldnât, Union thought. He himself had once triedâand paid the price. He had married his destined partner, the daughter of a count.
âWhat happens if you reject it?â
âDonât. Because youâll end up loving her anyway.â
Regios already knew that all too well. Why did God impose such a thing as fate? To bind hearts so completely that no other choice could existâit was a perfect prison.
âFate,â Regios murmured. âAnd if I insist on rejecting it?â
âI hope you wonât. ButâŚâ
Union smiled bitterly. Not everyone welcomed destiny. His cousin, especially, rejected it with youthful arrogance. Regios was only sixteen, after all.
âThen youâll pay the price.â
âThe price?â
âYouâve heard of those who did, havenât you?â
Union himself had once despised fate. But the moment he met his destined wife, he fell for her at first sight. Yet he told her, with cruel pride:
âI will not love youâas long as you are my fate.â
He still regretted that first sentence, and the way her face had crumbled at his words.
âLove doesnât exist because of fate,â Union said quietly. âItâs love that creates fate.â
âThen itâs just another trick of fate,â Regios replied.
Union sighed. He couldnât change the boyâs mind; heâd once thought the same way. He loved his wife deeply now, but she could never fully trust his feelings.
It wasnât punishment from fateâjust the result of his own arrogance.
âI hate that lazy word, âfate,ââ Regios said.
Union smiled faintly. âYouâll understand someday.â
Meanwhile, the Dukeâs mansion bustled with activity. Designers and jewelers came and went as the Duchess and Seluna busied themselves preparing dresses for the Crown Princeâs birthday festivities.
Epheliaâs dress was among themâbut compared to the others, it was barely an afterthought. The Duke and Duchess called her their daughter, yet treated her like a burden, giving her the bare minimum.
Because of this, they closely monitored her outings and social activity. It was impossible to attend gatherings wearing the same dress and jewelry every time.
âThis oneâhow do you like it?â
âOh my, is that an emerald?â
âYes, a large one we recently acquired. Itâs rare to find a gem this size. Would you like to try it on?â
âOf course.â
Seluna put on the necklace and examined herself in the mirror, the green jewel glimmering under the light.
âI love it, Mother.â
âThen weâll take it.â
âExcellent choice, Madam Duchess. And what about the elder lady? Has nothing caught your eye?â
Ephelia, who had quietly chosen only a modest necklace and earrings, shook her head.
âIâm fine. Please donât mind me.â
She didnât feel particularly hurt anymore. She had long since grown used to such treatment.
A knock sounded.
âMadam, the butler.â
âWhat is it?â
âA guest has arrived.â
âLet them in.â
When the butler entered, the Duchess frowned slightlyâno one had been scheduled to visit.
âA guest? Who could it be?â
âThe Crown Princeâs attendant, Madam.â
At that, the Duchessâs expression brightened instantly.
âThe Crown Prince? Oh my, what an honor! Where is he?â
âIn the main parlor.â
âLetâs go at once. You stay here, dear,â she said to the jeweler.
Seluna followed her mother out. Ephelia rose quietly as well.
In the parlor, the attendant stood and bowed deeply.
âForgive the sudden visit.â
âThereâs no need to apologize if you come on the Crown Princeâs orders. What brings you here?â
âIâve been sent to escort Lady Ephelia to the palace.â
âOh, I see! Girls, prepare yourselves.â
But the attendant spoke quickly, flustered.
âMy apologies, Madam Duchess. His Highness specifically requested only Lady Ephelia, his fiancĂŠe.â
âI see. How thoughtful of His Highness,â the Duchess said smoothly, though her eyes trembled for a moment.
âShall we go, my lady?â
âCould you wait a moment?â
âEverything has been prepared for your comfort.â
âI just need to fetch something from my room.â
âOf course.â
Ephelia hurried upstairs, opened a drawer, and took out a neatly folded handkerchief. She pressed it to her chest, hesitated, then put it back.
Regios had never invited her early to his birthday celebrations before. It was always on the day itself, with her family. She hadnât even finished wrapping his gift.
But when she was about to leave the room, she stopped, turned back, and took the handkerchief again.
You donât need to take it. He wonât like it anyway, she told herself. Yet as the carriage started moving, she couldnât resist. She ordered it to stop, ran back, and tucked the handkerchief into her gown.
âI donât love you.â
His eyes, once warm and bright, now looked upon her with a chilling calm.
âAnd I never will. Iâll respect you as my fiancĂŠe, as the future Crown Princessâbut donât expect love from me.â
âWhy would you say that?â she whispered.
âBecause of fate.â
âFate?â
âYes. You are my fate.â
âSo what? You hate me because of that?â
âNo. I still find you unbearably lovely.â
But in his eyes, that âloveâ was twisted with rejection and scorn.
âThen why?â
âBecause I hate that you are my fated partner.â
Ephelia had rejoiced to learn he was her destiny. It had felt like salvation. But his words shattered that joy.
âThis isnât love,â he said coldly. âItâs just a feeling manufactured by fate.â
She couldnât understand. Even now, she loved him sincerely. Yet she couldnât even voice her pain.
Regios had kept his wordâalways courteous, always protectiveâbut never loving.
She didnât resent him, but his words still echoed in her mind.
The days at the palace passed quietly. Regios had come to bring her there, but he hadnât come to see her once. It didnât surprise her anymore. She was simply grateful to be away from the Dukeâs mansion.
If I asked him to come, he would, she thought. Thatâs why I wonât. She knew she was a burden to him.
A knock came.
âMy lady.â
âWhat is it?â
âHer Majesty the Empress has come to see you.â
âWhat? Oh, let her in, quickly!â
When the door opened, the Empress herself stood smiling at the threshold.
âYour Majesty! You must be so busyâwhat brings you here?â
âI hope Iâm not intruding?â
âOf course not. Iâm honored that you came.â
âIâve been meaning to visit, but things have been hectic. I was worried, seeing that you havenât been out at all.â
âOhâI didnât even realize.â
Only then did Ephelia notice she hadnât left her room once. It wasnât intentional; she simply had nowhere to go, no one to see. Years of confinement at the Dukeâs estate had made such isolation feel normal.
âIâm glad youâre well,â the Empress said gently. âHas Regios come to see you?â
âHeâs been busy.â
Rather than say no, Ephelia made excuses for him.
âBusy? How busy can he be, preparing for a birthday? That foolish boy.â
âItâs fine, Your Majesty.â
âHe finally invites you early, and then ignores youâhonestly.â
âI really donât mind. Truly.â
The Empress looked at her kindly.
âHeâs a thoughtless one, but please be patient with him. I understand your heart.â
âIâm fine, truly.â
âHeâll come to realize things soon enough,â the Empress said.
Ephelia smiled softly and nodded. She no longer expected such things. His heart had long since frozen overâand as long as she remained his fated one, it would never thaw again.
Though she had been surprised by his invitation, his absence didnât hurt her anymore. Still, she didnât have the heart to correct the Empress.