~Chapter 54~
Ramzi Barnaby got off the train at the capital station. His face was hard and angry.
After Egbertās visit, Ramziās little heart had shriveled up even more. If his wifeās illness hadnāt gotten worse, he would have come to the capital much sooner.
His breath was rough with anger.
Anais was selfish. Ever since she was little, the only thing that mattered to her was filling her own mouth.
āAnd in the endā¦! She pushed her mother to death!ā
Ramziās eyes went wild. He climbed into a carriage and shouted fiercely,
āTo Graham Bank!ā
He needed to see what his damned daughterās bank was really like. Ramzi gritted his teeth.
Sometimes I forget that misfortune is still waiting for me.
I stared blankly at the Lakecia books I had bought, neatly placed on my desk.
āYouāre killing your own mother!ā
Crash!
Everything I had carefully picked out was smashed and broken. I covered my ears.
My father hadnāt changed.
Even when I was young, he took out his anger on me with violence.
Outside, he was always weak.
At home, he was always strong.
Outside, he bowed his head because he had no money or power. Then he came home and let out all his anger on me.
āI told you! You have to pay back the cost of raising you! Do you feel better now, kicking your mother out of Sezares Hospital?ā
I could see staff running around outside the door. What great timing, I thought.
I gave a hollow laugh.
Heres left for Hertel with Jenus today. Theyād be gone for a while, and thatās exactly when my father came.
Even the security guards at the door looked unsure.
āDonāt come in! If you come in, Iāll just die right here!ā
Blood dripped from my fatherās foot. His wild eyes turned to me.
āDivorce right now and go crawling to the Graham Marquis! Bow down and beg!ā
āIāll take care of Motherās situation myself.ā
I barely managed to say it, swallowing hard.
The office being destroyed felt like me. My soul was rolling around in the dirt like trash.
My whole body tingled, then hurt.
I hugged myself.
My mouth wouldnāt work. The scars of childhood violence made my body freeze.
I was powerless.
I couldnāt do anything.
My breathing was all messed up. Iām grown now, and I know my father canāt hurt me like before.
In the past, even if I reported him, the police would just say it was ādisciplining a childā and leave.
āKid, if you did better, would your father get mad?ā
That question hurt so much. What more could I do to be ābetterā?
Itās okay, Anais.
Donāt be stupid.
ā¦Please.
āYou think you can handle it? Do you know your mother almost died last night?! Youāll only be happy if she dies, wonāt you?ā
āThatās not true.ā
āThen get up right now! Come with me. Divorce and beg the marquis!ā
I bit my lip hard.
āI told you, Iāll handle it. My ties with the Graham family are over. And the director at Sezares Hospital canāt throw out Mother. It was in the late marquisās will. Soā¦ā
āYou sure have a lot to say! Always acting so smart.ā
My father stomped his foot. The guards were busy keeping people away from the office door. The noise grew louder.
āA marriage you did without telling your parents means nothing! Give up right now!ā
āEven if I did, the marquis wouldnāt take me back.ā
āNo! Itās all arranged. If you do well, the marquis will forgive you!ā
Now I saw what was going on.
Egbert must have stirred up my father and threatened the hospital director.
Thatās just the sort of thing he would do.
He must really want the bank.
But Graham Bank is too big for Egbert. I knew heād ruin it if he ever got it.
Realizing this made my blood boil with anger. But the anger gave me courage.
āI said Iād take care of it, Father!ā
āWhen? After your mother dies? Look at youāyour mother and I are suffering!ā
My father stared at the brooch pinned to my chest.
āYou just care about yourself, living well while we suffer!ā
āIāll meet with the hospital director. I can fix this. Please stop, Father.ā
āYour attitude is the problemā¦!ā
I forced myself to move and opened the safe.
I grabbed some cashāwhatever was there.
āAnais, what are youā¦!ā
āTake this and go back.ā
My father never listened. The only thing that worked with him was money.
Itās hard to believe someone like him truly loved my mother.
His face lit up. In the end, it was always about the money. I let out a dry laugh.
He grabbed the cash.
āThis isnāt enough to save your mother.ā
To my father, Mother was just an excuse, a shield. I handed over another bundle of cash, completely emotionless.
āThereās no more.ā
He glanced at the empty safe. I moved aside so he could see for himself. Finally, he stepped back.
āAhem. Itās not about the money.ā
I looked at him coldly.
I didnāt care if it was about money or not. He looked like a monster to me.
āI need to take care of your mother, so Iāll leave now. Fix this as soon as you can. If something happens, Iāll go straight to the marquis. Understand?ā
I didnāt answer, but he acted like I had and left.
I sat blankly for a long time, holding my head and sighing deeply.
āHaā¦ā
I sat down weakly in my chair and waved my hand.
āEveryone, get out.ā
āDirector, we should clean up in here.ā
The security guard looked at me with pity. I didnāt like that look. I wasnāt someone to be pitiedāI was the boss who gave orders.
If they mixed their feelings in, theyād start looking down on me. My father was a genius at ruining my life.
āLeave. Iāll call you back in a while.ā
āā¦Yes, Director.ā
The broken door closed behind them.
I buried my face in my hands. Everything from this morning felt so far away.
āHaā¦ā
I bit my lip hard.
Good luck usually doesnāt follow misfortune, but bad luck comes so easily after good luck.
My shoulders shook.
Between my fingers, I could see the books I bought about Lakecia.
Just a while ago, those books had made me so excited.
[This book is good. That one has too many opinions, and some are wrong.]
āThen Iāll use this book. Oh, what about this one?ā
[Itās good for finding travel spots.]
āIāll pick some places to visit with Baldwin. Youāll go somewhere with me other than the fountain, right?ā
[Of course.]
Even the small conversations I had with Baldwin were clear in my mind. Even in a crowd, Baldwin never felt shy.
His hand holding mine was always firm and trustworthy. I felt like nothing bad could ever happen.
But misfortune was still with me.
āAh, reallyā¦ā
In the end, I couldnāt hold back my tears. I tried to think of other things, but it didnāt work.
āDamn Egbert.ā
I muttered quietly.
I want to be rid of him, but heās still my bad luck.
I donāt know how to get away from him completely.
And I donāt even know why heās so obsessed with me. He never even saw me as a woman. Even without Graham Bank, heād have enough to live well.
He could still have all the luxury he wanted.
So why?
āIs it just pride?ā
Maybe it was.
But does the reason really matter? I had to fight the enemy in front of me.
I pulled out my handkerchief and wiped my tears.
I hadnāt done anything wrong. I wouldnāt give up, and I would never lose.
I pulled myself together. I filled my heart with stubbornness.
And in that moment, one person came to mind.
[Tell me if you need me.]
I wanted to see my protector. I wanted to see Baldwin.